阿婆the GM - paper vulture ;

i know i'm pretty late in doing this
but i've finally did my personality profiling thing.
but no point since i didnt go for the workshop anw.
heh.
so much happened in a week.

heard joycie's veggie project was successful!

i'm still an ENFP, after so long.
=D


Your Type is ENFP
Strength of the preferences %
Extroverted 33
Intuitive 12
Feeling 50
Perceiving 22



Qualitative analysis of your type formula
You are:

• moderately expressed extrovert
• slightly expressed intuitive personality
• moderately expressed feeling personality
• slightly expressed perceiving personality

The Portrait of the Champion Idealist (eNFp)

RATIONAL IDEALIST

ARTISAN GUARDIAN

The Champion Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in accomplishing their aims, and informative and extraverted when relating with others. For Champions, nothing occurs which does not have some deep ethical significance, and this, coupled with their uncanny sense of the motivations of others, gives them a talent for seeing life as an exciting drama, pregnant with possibilities for both good and evil. This type is found in only about 3 percent of the general population, but they have great influence because of their extraordinary impact on others. Champions are inclined to go everywhere and look into everything that has to do with the advance of good and the retreat of evil in the world. They can't bear to miss out on what is going on around them; they must experience, first hand, all the significant social events that affect our lives. And then they are eager to relate the stories they've uncovered, hoping to disclose the "truth" of people and issues, and to advocate causes. This strong drive to unveil current events can make them tireless in conversing with others, like fountains that bubble and splash, spilling over their own words to get it all out.

Champions consider intense emotional experiences as being vital to a full life, although they can never quite shake the feeling that a part of themselves is split off, uninvolved in the experience. Thus, while they strive for emotional congruency, they often see themselves in some danger of losing touch with their real feelings, which Champions possess in a wide range and variety. In the same vein, Champions strive toward a kind of spontaneous personal authenticity, and this intention always to "be themselves" is usually communicated nonverbally to others, who find it quite attractive. All too often, however, Champions fall short in their efforts to be authentic, and they tend to heap coals of fire on themselves, berating themselves for the slightest self-conscious role-playing.

Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

by Marina Margaret Heiss:

[The following comes partially from the archetype, but mostly from my own dealings with ENFPs.]


General: ENFPs are both "idea"-people and "people"-people, who see everyone and everything as part of an often bizarre cosmic whole. They want to both help (at least, their own definition of "help") and be liked and admired by other people, on bo th an individual and a humanitarian level. They are interested in new ideas on principle, but ultimately discard most of them for one reason or another.

Social/Personal Relationships: ENFPs have a great deal of zany charm, which can ingratiate them to the more stodgy types in spite of their unconventionality. They are outgoing, fun, and genuinely like people. As SOs/mates they are warm, affectionate (l ots of PDA), and disconcertingly spontaneous. However, attention span in relationships can be short; ENFPs are easily intrigued and distracted by new friends and acquaintances, forgetting about the older ones for long stretches at a time. Less mature ENFPs may need to feel they are the center of attention all the time, to reassure them that everyone thinks they're a wonderful and fascinating person.

ENFPs often have strong, if unconvential, convictions on various issues related to their Cosmic View. They usually try to use their social skills and contacts to persuade people gently of the rightness of these views; his sometimes results in their negle cting their nearest and dearest while flitting around trying to save the world.Work Environment: ENFPs are pleasant, easygoing, and usually fun to work with. They come up with great ideas, and are a major asset in brainstorming sessions. Followthrough tends to be a problem, however; they tend to get bored quickly, especially if a newer, more interesting project comes along. They also tend to be procrastinators, both about meeting hard deadlines and about performing any small, uninteresting tasks that they've been assigned. ENFPs are at their most useful when working in a group w ith a J or two to take up the slack.

ENFPs hate bureaucracy, both in principle and in practice; they will always make a point of launching one of their crusades against some aspect of it.

by Joe Butt:

ENFPs are friendly folks. Most are really enjoyable people. Some of the most soft-hearted people are ENFPs.

ENFPs have what some call a "silly switch." They can be intellectual, serious, all business for a while, but whenever they get the chance, they flip that switch and become CAPTAIN WILDCHILD, the scourge of the swimming pool, ticklers par excellence. Som etimes they may even appear intoxicated when the "switch" is flipped.

One study has shown that ENFPs are significantly overrepresented in psychodrama. Most have a natural propensity for role-playing and acting.

ENFPs like to tell funny stories, especially about their friends. This penchant may be why many are attracted to journalism. I kid one of my ENFP friends that if I want the sixth fleet to know something, I'll just tell him.

ENFPs are global learners. Close enough is satisfactory to the ENFP, which may unnerve more precise thinking types, especially with such things as piano practice ("three quarter notes or four ... what's the difference?") Amazingly, some ENFPs are adept at exacting disciplines such as mathematics.

Friends are what life is about to ENFPs, moreso even than the other NFs. They hold up their end of the relationship, sometimes being victimized by less caring individuals. ENFPs are energized by being around people. Some have real difficulty being alone , especially on a regular basis.

One ENFP colleague, a social worker, had such tremendous interpersonal skills that she put her interviewers at ease during her own job interview. She had the ability to make strangers feel like old friends.

ENFPs sometimes can be blindsided by their secondary Feeling function. Hasty decisions based on deeply felt values may boil over with unpredictable results. More than one ENFP has abruptly quit a job in such a moment.

Functional Analysis:

Extraverted iNtuition

The physical world, both geos and kosmos, is the ENFP's primary source of information. Rather than sensing things as they are, dominant intuition is sensitive to things as they might be. These extraverted intuitives are most adept with patterns and connections. Their natural inclination is toward relationships, especially among people or living things.

Intuition leans heavily on feeling for meaning and focus. Its best patterns reflect the interesting points of people, giving rise to caricatures of manner, speech and expression.

Introverted Feeling

Auxiliary feeling is nonverbally implied more often than it is openly expressed. When expressed, this logic has an aura of romance and purity that may seem out of place in this flawed, imperfect world. In its own defense, feeling judgement frequently and fleetly gives way to humor. ENFPs who publicize their feelings too often may put off some of the crowd of friends they naturally attract.

Extraverted Thinking

Thinking, the process which runs to impersonal conclusions, holds the extraverted tertiary position. Used on an occasional basis, ENFPs may benefit greatly from this ability. Less mature and lacking the polish of higher order functions, Thinking is not well suited to be used as a prominent function. As with other FP types, the ENFP unwary of Thinking's limitations may find themselves most positively mistaken.

Introverted Sensing

Sensing, the least discernible ENFP function, resides in the inner world where reality is reduced to symbols and icons--ideas representing essences of external realities. Under the influence of the ever-present intuition, the ENFP's sensory perceptions are in danger of being replaced by hypothetical data consistent with pattern and paradigm. When it is protected and nourished, introverted sensing provides information about the fixed. From such firm anchoring ENFPs are best equipped to launch into thousands of plausibilities and curiosities yet to be imagined.

Perhaps the combination of introverted Feeling and childlike introverted Sensing is responsible for the silent pull of ENFPs to the wishes of parents, authority figures and friends. Or perhaps it's the predominance of indecisive intuition in combination with the ambiguity of secondary Fi and tertiary Te that induces these kind souls to capitulate even life-affecting decisions. Whatever the dynamic, ENFPs are strongly influenced by the opinions of their friends.

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so it ends here (:

i miss you.

WEDNESDAY WEDNESDAY WEDNESDAY

i woke up this morning
disturbed by the noise outside.

they're knocking down most of the trees outside
such an extensive land
and they started right outside my window.

it was pretty sad you know
seeing all the already dead trees being felled.
then you'll look at the tallest one and think
"man, how old is that tree, so tall but so thin."
then it falls.
and you think again
"there's another one, a taller but thinner one!"
and it falls.

then you get sick of it and leave the window.

today was spent fairly well.
did a little homework.
not very productive. :(
i miss organic chem!
i shall be Miss miss-organic-chem.
cos i squeal about that all day.
it's so interesting.
what's up with thermochem.
NO LIFE

cooked a little too.
food can be nice without oil! =)
i've a sudden liking for boiled veggies. haha.

i miss school!!!
i cant stand missing out any longer.

wednesday come wednesday come
WEDNESDAY.

but once i think of all the work i've gotta catch up on,
sian.

no wednesday for me.

it's been so long since i've blogged
but it doesnt seem THAT long.
heh.

just the morning after i ended the previous post
i woke up feeling like SHIT.

and for a week after that,
the bed was my best friend.

didnt go send qian off on sunday
still feeling pretty guilty but im sure she'll understand.

i was puking and having diarrheoa and feeling very tired
everybody said it was the fried prawn mee i ate
but i was pretty sure it was the instant noodles though.
2 eggs leh =x
and they tasted a little funny
cos we didnt use the seasoning
and my sister made up the flavour herself.
but it was edible though.

but basically i was weak la.
couldnt ask for it better any other way.

monday
morning i went to cgh a&e to see the doc
he was quite a handsome doc but he didnt look too professional
my mum harped on my past case of thalassemia
and he explained why it couldnt have any relevance.
he'd make a good idol
but nah he wasnt a very good doctor other than that.
he diagnosed it as food poisoning (which is pretty normal)
and gave me some medicine, sent me home.
gave me mc for mon and tue

ate the medicine, went to sleep
slept till i lost track of time.
felt so tired and so weak
didnt feel better.

tuesday
in the morning i was a little better
but i couldnt contain my food
and vomited
and after that
felt like shit again.

then i slept and ate my medicine and felt like shit the whole day.
at night my mum said better bring me to my family doctor.
so she did and we waited like shit lar.
for almost an hour i think.
season for falling sick i guess.
take care everyone (:

the doctor gave me medicine
and said stop eating one of those that the cgh doctor gave me
and he said if i continued being so dehydrated and so weak
by the end of the next day i had to go back to cgh to be put on a drip.
gave me mc for wednesday and tuesday

wednesday
feeling much better man.
just tried to walk around the house
cos the stupid maths teacher (i wont say who) kept calling me
keep reminding me of the fhawlhgjglhglk maths test
when to retest when to retest
arghh stfu lar.

i wanted to go back to sch on friday.
feel so bored at home.
so i thought must get well soon.

puked only once on wednesday (:

thursday
this is the OH SHIT DAY.
woke up feeling worse than how i felt on sunday
couldnt take in any of my medicine, water or any sort of drinks.
obviously no food too.

got everyone at home worried.
went back to the hospital
this doctor was called shirlynn.
haha.
she was much nicer to me
and she gave me options.
i decided to stay for observation for 2 hours
and see how the drip helps me.

after 2 hours i felt better
but still like shit,
only last time is 10 shit now is 2 shit.
so i decided to stay in the hospital so i could get better faster
i mean
obviously
between
1. staying at the hospital for 2 days to get better
2. going home to landiao for 1 week and maybe not get better
who wants to go home and landiao.

so i admitted.
c class ward cos b class fffcold!
no fan's cold already
still want STRONG AIRCON?
my lips turn purple arh.

i slept well

friday
good day (:
lotsa ppl dropped by to visit!
mum came in the morning but couldnt come in
cos there were doctors doing rounds.
dad dropped by in the aftn
then kim came after he left (:
she's my sweetest friend!
she stayed till 430
and then the 304 ppl came at 5+ =D
so many can!
astri joycie joycie louelle emily fiona adeline wayne lg domy ivan
then shir and suhan joined us later
and at that point of time naresh was in the pharmacy lar
im so glad they didnt tell him they were there.
i wouldnt want him to come man.
heh.

ivan thinks seventeen is a better read than fhm =)

it was a good day and i felt much better (:

saturday
ooooh also visiting day!
haha the gays and 304 ppl too!
daddy came again..
hulu came at 1 or 2 plus cos i was bored (:
she brought comics! hahaha
the gays came after soccer
wc joseph weinian xinglong daquan silas
bin yap and karhian joined us after that
it was totally gay lar
haha
they were reading my teen mags too
and observing me eating my clear soup and jelly
wooooooooooo.
uber cool.

then joycie joycie and domy came
so the gays left..
played mahjong with them la!
cant believe we did that haha
guess 304 ppl have nothing much to do except play cards.
just that now joycie the councillor can play! haha.

ate well, slept well, smiled all day (:

sunday
woooohooo THE BIG DAY!
woke up to frigging good news!
go home time!
yay

i packed and packed
and i left the ward
FREEEEEEEDOM
but still on a fairly strict diet.

then went to century to buy stuff at shop and save
for the first time in SO LONG
i ate rice.
(:

im so glad to be home!
im really gonna start eating healthy from now on
not cos i dont want to go to hospital anymore
..
ok i dont want to go to hospital anymore.
but staying healthy is good for me too what right? (:
so all of you stay healthy too!
stop eating all those things that will raise the blood pressure and cholestorol level.
cos if we dont start now,
by the time we reach old age
we landiao.
i know
i stayed in the ahma ward.
=)

whatever it is,
i know how blessed i am to have loving family and friends (:
i sound like a mushy shit
but ohwell
WHO GIVES A DAMN WHEN YOU'VE DIED FOR A WEEK?

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*edit
just realised ian and ben tried to visit me today but couldnt find me there
oops, feel a little guilty
didnt expect them to drop by.
but appreciate it anw (:

here i am
at six o'clock in the morning
still thinking about you

it's still hard
at six o'clock in the morning
to sleep without you

and i know that it might
seem too late for love
all i know

i need you now
more than words than can say
i need you now
i've got to find a way
i need you now
before i lose my mind
i need you now

here i am
looking out my window
im dreaming about you

cant let you go
at six o'clock in the morning
i feel you beside me

and i know that it might
seem too late for love
for love oh~

i need you now
more than words can say
i need you now
ive got to find a way
i need you now
before i lose my mind

i need you now
more than words can say
i need you now
oh i got to hear you say
i need you now
before i lose my mind

i need you now
i need you now

cool cool.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=brenduhh

gogogo! =)

oh i've just reset my counter.
no more 20000 hits!
quite sad though haha.
these numbers mean alot to me.

but well okcounter sucks
and i officially love bravenet from now on.

i hope diary-x goes up soon.
i want my entries back :)
but i dont have the ability to donate.
argh.

better not be down.
PLEASE SAVE DIARY-X!

i think i might just be over him now.
and i think it's because his birthday just happened so simply
and i know if we even talked it wouldn't be impressive
and i know that because i tried.

i'm so sick of all these.

lucky i've got mahjong with me (:
ironic right, more mahjong after new year.
haha
but who cares
it's so enjoyable!

yesterday was the first time i saw qian after she came back this month
and it was a year after she left last year.
i hope i don't cry tmr
cos i know already
that she's going to a better future (:

i'll miss her again though!
it'll be hard getting used to being without her again.

i've been paying too much attention to other people in school
that isn't good!
heh.

and i won 8.50 today at mahjong with steven and qian!
but we decided, steven shall just treat me to dinner tmr.
haha. (:

i think i've found my passion again.
my passion for mugging.
LOL
i never had a passion for that.

but now i'm really quite afraid.

today was such a great day man
u could really feel all the happiness in the air!
dont feel anything abt being single
just realised that there are actually so many couples in mj
haha

doesnt do you good to mope over being single man
im single and i spent the whole of today happy!

haha
i love 304 so much.

and im going back ahs tmr!
i hope

pls pls pls

*crosses fingers

happy vday ppl
and happy birthday danielding!