阿婆the GM - paper vulture ;

i really can't find my PDL.
shits.

i shall try to sleep early tonight,
and see if i can get up early tomorrow.

i must practice not going back to sleep once i wake up!

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it's so difficult to say what you really want.
well, at least it is for me.

happy leap year?

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gone.

screwed myself over,
two times over.
FUCK!

i await judgement,
and hope that judgement isn't fair.

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saw something on bumper stix just now,
but i don't really want to put it on my profile

i don't miss you,
i miss the person i thought you were.
you wonder why i don't talk to you anymore,
& please believe me when i say that it's not that i don't want to,
it's just that everything i want to say,
i can't tell you anymore.

i don't know how to explain it,
so i won't.
it's easier this way, pretending.

just want to shove everything off my back
and be able to do stuff without thinking about obligations and priorities
just want someone to listen without me telling.
because i know no matter how much i think about my obligations,
they never get fulfilled.

because i know no matter how much i think about my priorities,
they never get sorted

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and, erm
does anything bad happen when you forgot where you put your PDL?

i only remember i put it in a place where i knew for sure i wouldn't lose it.
well, i forgot to realize that i wouldn't find it too. :/

issue tissue
hit and run
hits and misses
guns and roses
stop to smell the roses
thorns among the roses
ouch.

bombs and eggs
humpty dumpty

who said he was an egg anyway?

i believe in yesterday

my last shot at redemption

will you still love me tomorrow

drew a new face and laughed.

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i'm sick of waking up late!
but can't help it :x

room warming?

anyone knows of any alarm clock that can wake me up and keep me awake?
NO alarm clocks which wake me up for 1 month and only 1 month

best if alarm clock does not shake me by my shoulders,
call me in the afternoon, sounding pissed and saying i'm impossible to wake up
and requires me to call it mum.

thanks!

alternative solutions to have me sleep early and still complete everything i have on hand are most welcome

mr. smelly toufu = mr. fat smelly toufu

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angela ammons - always getting over you

was it not enough stimulation
hit by a brick the other day
just when i thought that i'm okay

didn't like my conversation
i can't come up with something new
it doesn't really matter what i do

so here's my observation
you could never see it through my eyes
and i'm too tired to try

so don't call and say you're coming back for me
it don't mean nothing, i'm always getting over you
and don't lie and say that you're over me
it don't mean nothing, i'm always getting over you

was it too much aggravation
you're telling me the way but i won't see
then i change my mind you disagree

i used to be your inspiration
you chase i run you disappear
i know it's never over

so don't call and say you're coming back for me
it don't mean nothing, i'm always getting over you
and don't lie and say that you're over me
it don't mean nothing, i'm always getting over you

was it not enough stimulation
hit by a brick the other day
just when i thought that i'm okay

didn't like my conversation
i can't come up with something new
it doesn't really matter what i do

so don't call and say you're coming back for me
it don't mean nothing, i'm always getting over you
and don't lie and say that you're over me
it don't mean nothing, i'm always getting over you

dear mr. smelly toufu:
you have a problem with me being fat???
look into the mirror u fat dude!!

p.s, squinting, bloated, knotted up stomach turned out to be gastric!

love, ms. skinny fat shit.

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yay 2 midterm tests tmr!
as in rly yay cos come and go is good
at least i dont have to study for those two during recess week :)

off i go, 6am tmr.

my stomach feels like it's squinting itself
feels bloated with air,
and all knotted up.

am i supposed to drink something hot now?

on the way back home today
i luckily managed to catch a bus once i reached the bus stop,
and luckily managed to grab a seat once i was on the train.

i took out my biz law textbook to read cos i had to discuss tutorial online tonight
getting on quite well,
then two ladies sitting on both sides of me seemed particularly interested in law too.
especially the one on my right side!
she jitao slant her whole body to study MY textbook with me too!

i was so tempted to tell them
i know business law is very interesting,
but get your own book!!

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anyways, i'm glad for the momentum i have today
had better last through the sem!

IF YOU DON'T START ACTING LIKE YOU SHOULD
I SWEAR I WILL PUNCH YOUR FACE

AND DON'T TELL ME TO COOL DOWN BECAUSE I WON'T
BECAUSE WE'RE SUPPOSED TO HELP YOU, NOT DO ALL YOUR SHIT
AND YOU SHOULD BE DOING THE THINGS YOU SHOULD
NOT KEEP SCREWING THEM UP

EVEN WHEN I TOLD YOU STEP BY STEP WHAT TO DO

AND YOU SHOULD BE MORE CLEAR OF THE INSTRUCTIONS THAN ME!

WAKE UP HELLO!

how come like that?
get zzzzzzed up
and stop zzzzing.

tired time is over and that's that
if you keep hanging on to that tired time,
thinking it'd be a good excuse for slacking,
you'll never get anything done.

nothing at all.

i <3 new year!

i need to find something about being online that pisses me off
heh.

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what are you doing?

came across the three pieces today while unpacking.
thought of my responsibility to return them.
but i realised i never will
because i never want to be connected to them again.

and if i'm not connected to them,
i'm not connected to what i want.

the life i lived.
the life i enjoyed and the life i took by storm.
the life i really lived.

and now i won't be able to go back to it because of a stupid mistake.
okay maybe it wasn't a mistake,
but it sure wasn't the right thing to do.

i just don't have the cheek to face you again,
and i'm not taking any chances.

so i guess, it's goodbye.
to that life, always.
until maybe when i'm 30?
this it what you get for being high-profile.

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the last straw.. wasn't because you loved me too much.
it was because of your misplaced trust (that wasn't in me, wherever it was)
and though i don't have to bother reflecting,
i will because it's who i am.

and boy, am i tired of being me.

the courtroom scene just keeps playing out over and over again in my head
i don't know how she imagined it out but she did,
and it's real.

there are always things i hesitate to say here
and after repeated contemplation,
i don't,
because i know that i'll always remember what they are.

I Am So Not Impressed By People Who Type Like This,
Even Less Than People Who tYpE liKe tHis.
bUt, i aM jUst bEing jUdgEmEntAl.
i'M sUre thEy hAte peOple wHo type like this, or LIKE THIS.
This is fine, I think it's perfect for essays.
but blogs look good like that!!!
OR EVEN BETTER LIKE THAT!!!!

(i think they secretly think that i'm so boring and not creative anyway)

i am so freaking glad this is over.
but where should my time go to now?
(i really want a nice platonic hug but i don't know where to find it anymore. not that i ever did.)
zzzz

so freaking tired.

but i'm happy for late day tmr yay!

then it'll be a long long night,
partially enjoyable,
and it'll all be over.

at least on this side.

and both you and i know that when something ends,
it just means it's another beginning. :(