阿婆the GM - paper vulture ;

if only life was all about desperate housewives
and staying at home to nua on rainy days
and staying at home to nua everyday
and having comfy seats on mrts
and having my ipod blasting in my ears 24/7 (except when i'm watching dh)
and you (:
im tired. zzz tired.
gdnights alls

yesterday i was contemplating moving out of hall
today i saw my friendster horoscope

The Bottom Line

Choose to be more hopeful that things will get better. Thinking it helps it happen.
In Detail

Sometimes when you finish a journey, you arrive at a place that looks very different from what you thought it was going to look like. You might be disappointed, you might be pleasantly surprised. But you should definitely be hopeful that things will get better. You are where you need to be, and if you aren't happy about the accommodations, be patient. Learn to live with it and explore what it offers. This place you are in has much more to offer than you realize.

what a load of bull.
i'm never believing in friendster horoscopes again lolol.
not that i do anyway.

move off, sore throat.
clinic's lozenges aren't effective at all.

wannabe.

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whole day sleep sleep sleep.
never get anything done one.
hate falling sick!

riding the wave you're gonna catch.

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im back in hall.
it's not a very nice place.
not at all.
i don't see why they enjoy being here so much.

got lotsa stuff to do.
better get going.
):

merry xmas everyone!
though mine ended on this little low.

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time is running out,
so damn my foolish pride.

happy birthday little nanren chaichengrong!

and tons of other people lol. 7 of them if im not wrong.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
im actually checking which people have which application when sending requests
so at least i know they'll respond.
is it normal?

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toooooooodles im not affected
why should i be?
i'm happier now than i've ever been
:)
it just feels so damn good to piss you off.
christmas is coming!
shit.

spent the whole of last night finishing up my budget
& is happy (:

spent the last 2 hours cleaning up my room
& is happy (:

now, should i go shopping and come back then go out again
or go shopping and just stay out?

think i'll have lunch and pop out.

sometimes i wonder,
i should have went to lights instead of sound.

SHIT ANOTHER WRONG DECISION OHNO.

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don't go all friendly on me
because i'm not willing to be so friendly with you.
in fact, i don't like you at all.
you remind me of a certain someone from ahs.
bah.

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tmr morning cut hair
aftn scamp mtg,
evening sports comm mtg,
night time mtg the gays?
huat liao.

bumblebee.

now stuck at home till at least friday.

which is really bad cos i've got so much work piling up.
i really am a workaholic i guess.

i even brought my laptop home just in case i needed to handle paperwork
when i'm supposed to be resting.

zzz
superwoman has fallen.
indeed

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add:

and after this, browsing facebook,
i realised there are now more level ups on superpoke!
shit. i better go lie down before i get overwhelmed

i know i'm crazy
i know i'm super busy,
abnormally busy

i know and i'm sorry.

i'm sorry that i can't commit to hallplay because of science
i'm sorry that i can't commit to science because of hallplay
i'm sorry that we haven't spent more than 6 hours together in one day before
i'm sorry that other couples get to spend everyday with each other during vacation
while i can only see you once a week.

i'm sorry that i'm not superwoman,
and yes i know that i'm not superwoman.
i once thought i'd just rise up to be one anyway
well i realised i'm not
and i'm sorry.
i know how tough this is for you,
but what makes you think it's any better for me?

i'm not superwoman YES I KNOW.
i'm barely coping, in fact i'm struggling.
don't have time for everything.
because everything's clashing.

i'm sorry that i'm not superwoman
and that you had to bear this because everyone thought i was
or wanted me to be
but i'm only just starting to realise it
so give me time
give me time to settle everything
close it up.

do you even realise?
it's so hard for me to take out time
when people are doing stupid things,
like cutting allocated vacation by one week.

i want to spend every minute of the day with you more than you want me to.
everything you're asking from me,
i want more than you do.

everything's becoming a liability.
comm, hall, friends, everything.

im not coping and i know it so just shut the fuck up
and let me do things at my own pace.
i won't compromise on quality,
so don't compromise on quantity for me.

i don't wanna be superwoman anymore.
i just wanna be me.
your me.

im sorry for how all of these is turning out to be,
and im sorry for not knowing what i want.
actually, i do know.
but it just doesn't seem very me to put down everything for that.

and now i can't sleep because of what you said
though said with lovely intentions,
cut me deep.

what a bad time for everything.
gums.

i think my love of using "laoniang"
actually stems from me not liking to use "am".

you know,
"i am" & "laoniang is"

but today i think i like "am" pretty much.
but i love using laoniang too,
so it's broken grammar day.

laoniang am craving for
prata
sushi
and a certain someone hehehehehe

prata like really good prata.
prata with good curry, good skin, good egg
with good mee goreng and good tehpeng
with good company, good ol' company.

sushi like, good sushi.
good sushi is just good sushi, can't define it.

and omfg chicken rice.
STEAMED chicken rice (DRUMSTICK PLEASE)
omg.

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i'm not going to bother to define social acceptance
like everyone there is.
who am i to define it?
especially in a country a thousand times bigger than us

i don't even define it in my own social CIRCLE
much less country.

WOOHOO no more exams but ohalsghlsglajkg

okay here it goes.
by tonight, i gotta settle

• sweat consolidated budget
• what to say in scamp mtg tmr
• route for saturday and sunday

i wonder if i'll have time on saturday/sunday to meet for dinner.

i don't know where i find the time to do all this
especially since my passion is running out

i don't see why so many people are jumping
it's not bug free you know.

if you really want something great, useful
with everything, there's something else.

paper in 1 hour and here i am blogging.
omg
one day i'm gonna look back and regret
and please don't look at me and say i told you so

because that's the most disgusting thing to hear from a friend

i hate this.

i don't want to have to go through the paper later
not knowing how to do anything
or just taking random guesses.

i want to be able to know what i'm doing
and answer questions with confidence

but neither do i want to dive into a pool of notes
which i managed to climb out of for the past 5 days

i don't want anything at all.

i should know me better.
get your ass off man.
get yourself off the laptop
and mug. i miss you

the click 5 - the reason why

yesterday
i waited for your friends to walk away
so i could say just what i mean

i know we're moving fast
we're running from the past
i'm holding on before it fades away

could it be that maybe it's our first mistake
and baby that's alright
it's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
there's a reason why
they say that we should give it time
but time is not enough
and that's the reason why
when you're young you fall in love

standing still
i'm waiting round to see if this is real
cos i feel like i'm asleep

i'll open up my eyes
cos you might be the type
of girl that makes me dream when i'm awake

could it be that maybe it's our first mistake
and baby that's alright
it's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
there's a reason why they say that we should give it time
but time is not enough
and that's the reason why
when you're young you fall in love

so tell me can this really work
or will we end up getting hurt
is this love or myth
so tell me are you in for this
there's so much than we can ese
more than me
more than me
it takes two to believe

maybe it's our first mistake
and baby that's alright
it's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight

maybe it's our first mistake
and baby that's alright
it's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
there's a reason why they say that we should give it time
but time is not enough and that's the reason why
when we're young we fall in love

that's the reason why, when you're young you fall in love
that's the reason why, when you're young you fall in love

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i guess i need more faith.
it's hard.

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I AM SO FED UP WITH HAVING SO MUCH STUFF TO DO
with no one understanding that i need to mug.
and no one understanding the real requirement of the problem here
wait, did you really say that?
can't meet on thurs, then meet on fri to discuss lor
we're gonna give the briefing on thurs chick.
hmm then meet on thurs after your paper lor.
sorry sayang paper end 730 pm, you ask them to wait for me till 8 to give briefing lor.
hmm but im going sing k leh
okay lor then i don't study so that you can sing k okay?

okay i know it's not really your fault but i'm just a little fedup with myself
for having everything so last minute
for having my last paper on 6 dec.
and times and dates just keep changing,
timelines and budgets keep changing,
need this, dont need that, everything's too volatile.
isn't it a little too disorganized?

because of all of this,
i have to mess up MY OWN timeline.

but at least, i'm not as selfish as you.

going back hall now.
that's when everything's gonna be really really fast

and i mean really really fast.

dingdongbell.

i wanna shop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i may just be the happiest bitch in the whole wide world now.
hahahahahahhahahahahahahaha.

thursday's last paper.
that's when everything will speed up
everything will come at once.
occ flyers, sweat, occ, hallplay rhsls, prep for vday bazaar and planning of scamp bash.

this is so amazing.
time passes so quickly

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this is so amazing
never knew the truth could hurt you this much,
never knew the truth could put such a big fat smile in my heart.

:)
i am happy so don't piss me off! :)

PLUS
my brandon boy is coming back tmr with.........
2 tins of cookies for me -_-
poor thing. really need to bring him on his on holiday one day.

happy birthday james! :) love you i really do :)