阿婆the GM - paper vulture ;

i really wish that what i believe in is true.
believe me
i really do.

so if you happen to know what i'm talking about
and can confirm it,
just let me know.

if you don't, i don't wanna hear anything else.

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great day out yesterday w edwin and hulu
was really tired though
a full long day from 6-12 :

but it was really great meeting up with edwin la.
and the movie doesnt suck la!!

and we didnt take photos okay.

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sian la go college day

ciara d - superwoman

early in the morning i put breakfast at your table
and i make sure that your coffee has its sugar and cream
your eggs are over easy, your toast done lightly
all that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me

now you say the juice is sour, it used to be so sweet
and i can't help but to wonder if u're talking about me
we don't talk the way we used to talk, its hurting so deep
i've got my pride, i will not cry
but its making me weak

i'm not your superwoman
i'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that everything is ok
boy, i am only human
this girl needs more than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to me
ooh, baby

i fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you
i want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you
but when you get there you just tell me you're not hungry at all
you said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk

you like to think that i'm just crazy when i say that you've changed
i'm convinced i know the problem, you don't love me the same
you're just going through the emotions and you're not being fair
i've got my pride i will not cry
still i can't help but care

i'm not your superwoman
i'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that everything is okay
boy, i am only human
this girl needs more than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to me

oh baby look into the corners of your mind
i'll always be there for you through good and bad times
but i can't be that superwoman that you want me to be
i'll give my love - everlasting love if you'll return love to me

i'm not your superwoman
i'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that everything is okay
boy, i am only human (i'm only human)
this girl needs more than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to me

i'm not your superwoman (oooh)
i'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that everything is okay
boy, i'm only human (i'm only human)
this girl needs more than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to be
ooh baby

rihanna - unfaithful

story of my life
searching for the right
but it keeps avoiding me

sorrow in my soul
cos it seems that wrong
really loves my company

he's more than a man
and this more than love
the reason that this guy is blue

the clouds are rolling in
because im gone again
and to him i just cant be true

and i know the he knows im unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that i am happy with some other guy

i can see him dying

i dont wanna do this anymore
i dont wanna be the reason why
everytime i walk out the door
i see him die a little more inside
i dont wanna hurt him anymore
i dont wanna take away his life
i dont wanna be
a murderer

i feel it in the air
as im doing my hair
preparing for another day

a kiss up on my cheek
he's here reluctantly
asks if im gonna be out late

i say i wont be long
just hanging with the girls
a lie i didnt have to tell

because we both know
where i'm about to go
and we know it very well

cos i know that he knows im unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that i am happy with some other guy

i can see him dying

i dont wanna do this anymore
i dont wanna be the reason why
everytime i walk out the door
i see him die a little more inside
i dont wanna hurt him anymore
i dont wanna take away his life
i dont wanna be a murderer

his trust
i might as well take a gun and put it to his head
get it over with

i dont wanna do this anymore (anymore)

i dont wanna do this anymore
i dont wanna be the reason why
and everytime i walk out the door
i see him die a little more inside
and i dont wanna hurt him anymore
i dont wanna take away his life
i dont wanna be
a murderer

-

dont feel like blogging today leh
byebye

i know u'd hate to hear this from my ears
and i never plan to let you know anyway.

it doesn't work on me.
this screaming and shouting has no effect on me.
you say it's been years
im glad you know that.
it's been years

you never give me a chance.
you never do.

just like everyone else
nobody gives me a chance to explain

may you be strong to carry on

if you wanna ask me why i've changed
first think about how i've changed.

if you wanna ask me about why i did what i did
first think about why would i want to.

school's getting more monotonous.

we're trying to spice our life by saying the same jokes all over again.
i can see we're succeeding.

who am i to even think that my life could be perfect?

i did something i havent done in a long time today.
and i pretty much regret it.
one look was enough to kill

and i feel wowed all over again.

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im really trying hard to switch back to be hardworking again.
but im drained out from everything else that's happening.

I HATE SCHOOL
and kill me if im the only one.

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on a lighter note,
sch's been a little more enjoyable with so much snacks in btwn lessons.
shall bring more food to sch alr.

IM SO GLAD TMR'S A LATE DAY
i could die if it wasnt.
okay maybe not.

my mum's shortchanging me of 50 bucks.
but its okay, im still surviving.
and it isnt that difficult anw.

im having trouble taking the next step.
im having trouble moving on
im having trouble finding my future
i'd hate to admit it
but yes, i still miss you.

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I CANT SEE MYSELF IN UNI OHNO DIE TIME
all the wishes i made
all the aspirations and all the dreams

they dont seem to be forming shape at all.

and to be honest.
i'm really worried about post-jc life. :(

i mentioned before that i hate oversensitive people right?
well
i just realised that insensitive people put me off too
and it sucks when there're people who can be so oversensitive at one time
and super insensitive the next moment
you dont even know to tell em if they're insensitive or oversensitive
not like i have the prerogative to tell people what to do.
BUT NEVERMIND.

and yay finally met up w tw
and steven and wj and yh too
chats wif em really make me miss ahs!

slacked like shit today.
down to serious work tmr!

happy birthday xl!
and joanne and wasby and ahs and mj and alot of other schools.
thats what we say every year.
haha.
23jul is a wonderful and magical day!

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young boy you had better learn some manners if u dont want me to bash you up.

i need help.

i know where i'm going
but i've no idea how to get there.

i am sure of what i want now.

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woooooo
long hu men is nice leh
not bad not bad
movie of few words and many fighting scenes.
dunno how to say but nice pls!

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i don't know what im gonna do with my life.

saw edwin tday b4 meeting jac.
prelude? haha.

i know i may have posted these lyrics millions of times
but i still love em

johnny rzeznik - i'm still here

i am a question to the world
not an answer to be heard
all a moment
that's held in your arms

and what do you think you'd ever say
i wont listen anyway
you ignore me
and i'll never be what you want me to be

and what do you think you understand
im a boy, no i'm a man
you can take me and throw me away

and how can you learn what's never shown
yeah you stand here on your own
they dont know me
cos im not here

and i want a moment to be real
wanna touch things i dont feel
wanna hold on
and feel i belong

and how can the world want me to change
they're the ones that stay the same
they dont know me
cos im not here

and you see the things they never see
all you wanted, i could be
now you know me
and im not afraid

and i wanna tell you who i am
can you help me be a man
they can't break me
as long as i know who i am

and i want a moment to be real
wanna touch things i dont feel
wanna hold on
and feel i belong

and how can the world want me to change
they're the ones that stay the same
they cant see me
but im still here

they cant tell me who to be
cos im not what they see
and the world is still sleeping
while i'll keep on dreaming for me
and their words are just whispers
and lies that i'll never believe

and i want a moment to be real
wanna touch things i dont feel
wanna hold on
and feel i belong

and how can they say i never change
they're the ones that stay the same
im the one now
cos im still here

im the one
cos im still here
im still here
im still here
im still here

if i have nothing better to do
i'd say yay it's my 100th entry

and yes
i have nothing better to do
sitting down here
and waiting for time to pass.

so

YAY it's my 100th entry

it's time to grow up and not be so childish anymore!

one last thing before i go off

lampard's so hot

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAAAA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAAAA

(: MEET UP THIS MONTH LA OKAY
or maybe the next haha.

today was such a horrible day
so many ups and downs
i dont like
wanna up up all the way
wanna down down all the way.
:

welcome back bjorn!
a lil late though haha.

and heard from steven.
welcome back tw!
meet up too!

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mixed emotions.

there's no point giving in if you devalue yourself
there's no point moving on if he's all that matters

i am small and the world is big

how does it feel to be different from me
are we the same

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i'm starting to detest a lot of people
people i really liked in the past inclusive
people i was really sincere in making friends with
i'm starting to detest all of em
including people i always detested of course

but well its THAT mood now
so what i said will probably not apply tmr.
yeah dont want any misunderstandings by others
NO i'm not talking about you in specific.
who ever "YOU" is
-_-

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i cant wait for jc life to be over
its hard though

we know these 3 months will be LONGEST ever.
well
even today, just today
just a normal weekend during jc years
even today
even today felt like 48 hours

and 48 hours isnt good
when the weather is wtfcb hot
nah, not for me.

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when will all these guessing end
when will all these chance-taking end
when can i stop risking everything

am i truly on the path i wanna be?

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sometimes oversensitive people really really piss me off

i am truly FLABBERGASTED

is that how u spell it?
i dont care la, i feel that way now.

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wonderful day out with the girls and adenine's friends haha
katong and parkway are truly places with treasures waiting to be discovered
wld make extremely good hang-out-after-school places!

ooooh cakes.

i went to buy two more bags of chips
and wtf cheat my money more pls ntuc
the red pack got no shirt inside one
the green one gave me sweden

but on serious consideration
it seems like ntuc wld give me better chances
i'd rather have nothing
than have a truckload of ghanas and ecuadors
not knowing what to do with them
i dont have that many as-nice-as-ivan friends
who r willing to put serbia and montenegro on their hps!

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i never knew how powerful words could be
till the day they all went away from me




DADADA
i love pepsi okay

oh i just cant wait to see that look on his face again (:

competitions are rounding up and moods have been low
cheerup everyone
plus the post-exam blues too.

it sucks when you know something very very minor
and it restricts you totally

bleh.

happy birthday adenine!

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there are many things i try to tell myself

wah.
WAH WAH WAH
halt, my love for zizou
forward, my love for lampard.

my good boy is sucha hot model okay

and i realised zizou is the tuck-out-shirt kinda bad boy that contrasts to lamps
SO?

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okay cool you call yourself a ___ when all you do is ____?!

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today passed quite peacefully
i guess.

take care (:

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and i swear
yesmin is such a bitch
yup, dont wanna get in trouble with teacher blog-stalkers.

yesssssmin rocks my socks.

i'm back to where i started

and congrats to england for upping 5 positions on the fifa rankings!

i think me and lampard are so incompatible can

he is a good boy who always tucks in his shirt
while i am the girl with a skirt too short one one side and too long on the other

siao
but other than that
we are perfect for each other.
FACE IT

its just too bad that he hasnt met me yet
i tell you, if he met me before elen rives
siao, no more luna in this world

time to go be a spanish model too

WOOHOO HE'S SO HOT

okay im sorry
it may seem like im jumping from lampard to zidane to lampard
but zidane's so hot okay
i loved that look on his face when he headbutted the son of paparazzi
headbutt him more gogogo!

and u bloody italian u think u can be racist
look at how so NOT PROPORTIONATE you are before u start commenting.

okay
lol i wasnt supposed to talk abt italy

but zidane's hot and so is lampard

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sch's starting to settle properly
floorball and canoeing competitions up
gogogo

go lormee, be the real stary player!
go wayne lg ivan (: dont let all that training go to waste!

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i dont like school la okay.
i wanna go home ):

okay i'm at home

it has been a truly enriching experience
not only the tournament
but also the many incidents which occured concurrently

"soccer brings out the best and worst in people"
not only in players
but also other people
i've seen through many people i trusted
and trusted many new people too haha.

ive found wonderful players
maybe underperformers in the cup but NEHMIND
maybe legends with a horrible end but NEHMIND

okay im just trying to say i love lampard and zizou lol

byebye wc!

GOODBYE WORLD CUP

seeya in 2010 in south africa :)

urgh
who said there are never any happy endings
only the endings that brenda wants la.
the rest will all materialize

i shall not slam the spaghetties cos wc supports em

france was wonderful
if luck isnt on our side
we'll take 2nd best

the most horrible thing has happened
italy has won a well-coveted title which will stick for 4 years
because of a miss from the other team
buffon didnt save the ball, it hit the crossbar

but as usual there wasnt luck, and the ball didnt cross the line like zidane's did
maybe he was trying to emulate zidane
nah just kidding.
wc isnt a time for experiments
and we all know it from dear sven


like i said
its a lousy final
two goals decided from set pieces and outcome determined by penalties
i expected the match to be as wonderful as ytd
i guess the pressure was too much to withstand

red cards, substituitions, penalties
too familiar tyvmuch

but france gave it all and im proud of em :)
ure my champs!
2nd to england.

poor zidane
expecting to end his career with a loud bang which ended up as a red card wasnt too ideal

france did well
but sometimes we can only just wonder

*im not saying italy didnt do well ah!

no more pizza and spaghetti for me
french fries with jidan and ribena pls!

horacio is my jinx.
go away!

HOW
how not to fall in love

okay i decided to do econs later lol.
i'm a little tired now but i've got it all planned out

i shall sit right smack in the middle of the living room
its the best position - i will never fall asleep
if i do, i'll eat chocolates

shrimp wanton in the 2nd half
ice cream before that
so my stomach will be warm when i sleep.

lol.

lucky tmr is short day
i love short days

and short day = light bag day.

and short day + light bag day = good day!

and good day means win money
gogogogo

okay one more hour to go.
what shall i do to dwindle my time away?

okay i shall go to the toilet
then start on econs. LOL.
better not let them have any excuse to say im slacking

okay here are my hiccups again.

omfg that was such a great match
so friendly and all

i love kahn i love figo
im gonna miss figo.
byebye kahn and figo.

for once i felt my heart go out a lil to cr
reminded me of lampard
trying so hard when it mattered the most
heh

well done schweinsteiger
what a worthy man of the match.
though i'd have liked you to stay to score the first hattrick of the wc
i guess that own goal by petit was pretty much scored by you too.
(:

kahn is wonderful
so is dq
and kahn has a fffloud voice pls.
ffscary
dq do u shout as loud?
and lehmann is a nice guy!

lets hope tmr's match feels as good as today's! :)

klinsmann is hot la
until i saw his bald spot
but never mind

jidan also bald right

ok time to sleep.
byemans

i swear, i'm not interested.
i swear, i'm not interested.
i swear, i'm not interested.

had a really great day out today

met steven for lunch =D
haha. still owe him a dinner though.

met castor to celebrate jo's bday
wooo it was great
havent had such fun in a long time
castor shd meet up more often la
today's group was pretty small
but still very enjoyable. :)
imagine if everyone else came too!
haha.

and happy birthday eddiemoond!
though it's over by now la.

okay i ate this cake i bought that day
its coco exotic from four leaves
ok i know four leaves doesnt make it sound v impressive.
but i swear.
IT'S HEAVENLY

AND HEAVENLY BECAUSE
there's this really thick layer of liquid choc on top
followed by 2 layers of cake and 1 layer of chocolate cream alternating
and at the bottom its chocolate biscuit kinda cake
as in its crispy and all.
IT WONDERFUL CAN ITS MY NEW FAV CAKE
and u know what.
its damn cheap. only 3bucks i think
AND ITS FRIGGING BIG.
i finished it by myself but its too sweet for one go

i'll post pics later, the system's lagging.

WONDERFUL WONDERFUL CAKE

and i love shopping with astri at shop and save.

OHYA I TELL YOU I SO PISSED OKAY
cos i went to buy chips at shopnsave
wanted to buy calbee
but decided on jacknjill instead
cos each pack came with the soccer jersey handphone strap
so me and astri each bought one.

she got france!
i got ecuador :
so pissed okay!
at least get portugal or spain or korea or sth can give to friends right.
u want ecuador?
i'm more than willing to give you.
if not im gonna try to sell it on ebay WOOHOO

then i was telling everyone la
cos i bought two more packets
bu fu qi what.
then i havent open
then i was telling everyone that
if i get ghana and togo and ivory coast i can just go eat shit
i really didnt expect to get em what right.

today my sis opened one packet.
WTH NFKAJHVLEKHJVKLAKLJEGHKNNBCCBFJDHAKLGEGJ
ghana.

OMFG

nvm, still got one more.

if its england i'll treat myself to another cake
if its not england
i'll treat myself to more chips.

FRA nk to show you what words never can says:
materazzi
wengchiat says:
take taxi
escape from paparazzi
cos he wanna go party
but he dont dare to eat chilli
so his frens call him humji
and his wife go find john terry
but he's busy with mary
after hulu aka monkey
who's pregnant with a baby
who wont grow up to be chubby
but will end up with brennie
who will make friends with wc
who is very friendly
but is very nooby
not as much as bren's daddy
and idolises lampard frankie
who scored nuthing in worldcupie
but owned ur ass in chelsea
but made him very bitchy
and wc green with envy
that he doesnt have nudgies
and cant do mathematie
questions bren give r problematie
tits is always sleepy
cos he reads tuesdays with morrie
always with a cup of coffee
altho he got nomoney
he still strive on to pass chemistry
brenda is very funny
just like hardworking wc
he made it to the uni
and with j****** lived happily

-the end

chocolate cakes rock my ass off
and ive got lots to say about today but i cant blog
cos my sister's gotta use the net.

i'll blog tmr morning if im awake.

i wanna borrow more books from the sch library.

and i INSIST
dq = ricardo
ricardo = dq
dq = ricardo
ricardo = dq
dq = ricardo
ricardo = dq
dq = ricardo
ricardo = dq

and jidan is my hero
head as bald as smooth as jidan
MY JIDAN

i shall spend more time in the sch lib now that the stock taking is over

OKAY im supposed to blog tmr got tons to do now hahahahaha

WAHLA

that was a crazy foul!

okay
i can announce
that my life is now
PERFECT
if based on the requirements stated in the previous entry of course
however,
i now need to stay awake till 230
to make my life really perfect!

then when this week ends,
maybe it's gonna turn around
results day.
for both jct and finals

so what?!
JCT NIAAAA

and no phil neville doesnt look half like daquan like ricardo does
see ya later on tv dq

it's cool how i understand what you're trying to get across sometimes

i'll be just fine
pretending i'm not
i'm far from lonely
and it's all that i've got.

what crap,
my life is just about perfect right now!

except the discipline to wake up at 245 in the morning
only to wake up at 5
to catch extra time.

but italy rocks la okay.

but france rocks more.
jidan jidan gogogo

the only two things that are lacking in my life now:
icecream and cake

i woke up today with this feeling
better things are coming my way
i know the sunshine has a meaning
and nothing left can get in my way

:)

i guess all the late nights from the hols are coming to me only now.
so tired today

havent done anything for maths today.
time to really laugh at myself

all the stars are out tonight

当你开始追寻你要的自由
放开我们紧握的手
带走我的爱和天空

我不知所措
我以为我会懂
我们的爱~我们的爱~

当我独自走到时间的尽头
回忆和我擦身而过
带走你的爱和笑容

我无力承受
最后的一点心痛
我们的爱~我们的爱~

把爱放开　把手放开　
如果你的心已不在
把爱放开　不再等待　
你的温柔是一片空白

把爱放开　把心打开
这次我决定走出回忆重来
就让我彻底地伤　
再彻底地醒过来
就让我彻底地伤　
再彻底地醒过来

当我独自走到时间的尽头
回忆和我擦身而过
带走你的爱和笑容

我无力承受
最后的一点心痛
我们的爱~我们的爱~

把爱放开　把手放开　
如果你的心已不在
把爱放开　不再等待　
你的温柔是一片空白

把爱放开　把心打开
这次我决定走出回忆重来
就让我彻底地伤　
再彻底地醒过来
就让我彻底地伤　再彻底地醒过来

终于明白
爱已不再
从今以后再也没有什幺能去依赖
我还有什幺期待

把爱放开　把手放开　
如果你的心已不在
把爱放开 不再等待　
你的温柔是一片空白

把爱放开　把心打开
这次我决定走出所有回忆重来
就让我彻底地伤　
再彻底地醒过来

maybe i was wrong
but shut up about the comments first okay

its the same for all of you
ive got who im supporting
u guys have who ure supporting

if i shut up and not slam your idols
you wont slam mine right?

and its not the point of whether he deserves the slamming or not
its whether i deserve this incessant and absolutely ridiculous slamming
why, you're slamming him to me like ure trying to slam me!

THIS: click
LOLOLOLOLOLOL

okay sorry
i still think its cute hahaha

poor poor argentina
it's a pretty bad time for them
guoran suayness redefined.

i still insist argentina deserved to win.
lolol
poor guys

i'm feeling damn full now
and i cant wait for tonight

im just grateful for everything that's happening now :)

MY DREAM
is just weird.

i dreamt that me hulu joseph xl yap were having a bbq
at the foot of ahs chang chen
and thats not all
then i brought two of my friends there
and i introduced one of them as
THE australian soccer player DECO
wtf
deco? australia?
gay dream
and i dreamt that i saw weinian on the train and he became a girl.

i think im too tired alr lol.

i placed my trust in you

wonderful.
just wonderful

how come leh
argentina shdve won!!
:
tsk.

the book of answers gave me a very good answer today
question: ________________________
answer: probably, when you're older.

OMFG OMFG NO NO NO

question: ________________________ this year?
answer: definitely.

waaaaaaaaaa
i love the book of answers
so people!
place ur bets on ______!!

lucky lampard's gonna play despite getting a little injury
no doubt he hasnt been delivering goals
but whether he does or not
he's been doing a good job
he's not a forward what~!
but i guess goals are just part of his expectations for himself.

you're irritating.
you make me feel weird.
and i dont like :(
lampard lampard lampard gogogo

i dont care what all of you say
if you dont like him just go away
not as if i like him then u will die right
I LIKE I LIKE

go away.

:)

poor argentina
cheerup.

i guess klose, ballack and podolski are really the three
schneider too

well.
go argentina
its a little late.

btw
did i mention i love the book of answers?

had a great time out with hulu and gl today :)

blog later!
go argentina, but please dont play rough.

poor ballack being picked on right now.
if u continue picking on him
i wont support u anymore