阿婆the GM - paper vulture ;

poor mickey mouse.

no changeling.
tmr's QF, then it's pre-sales, then it's vday then it's semis
then it's presentation then it's..almost midsem break.
it's already week 3?

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awesomest birthday party. ever.
mine will never be like that.

last minute work = suicide

Arthur Ward: A true friend knows your weaknesses but shows you your strengths; feels your fears but fortifies your faith; sees your anxieties but frees your spirit; recognizes your disabilities but emphasizes your possibilities.

dead beat.

thanks. :)

i'm feeling..
tired, undriven, and very very uncertain.
and very unhappy as well.

don't get me wrong,
the new year rocks.

but maybe just not for me.

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but it's definitely been great catching up with family as an adult
talking about kids and marriage and my 21st birthday
and showing all of them what happiness should be like.

old, grumpy, discontent mothers and aunties and new grandfathers have issues
josiah is a one-piece wonder that dissolves all of them.

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i miss her but i'm glad she's not here.

stirring, stirring.
yesterday, today, tomorrow.

1. Inspire a SHARED vision.
2. CHALLENGE the process.
3. Encourage the HEART.
4. ENABLE people to act.
5. MODEL the way.

why can't all of you just..see.
like. SEE.

i..
want all 5 of us back in our lives.

can the two of you stop pissing each other off.
just..try.

i don't know how but if you can't do it
then maybe it's time to stop everything.

i am a nice girl
you are an alcoholic
a retarded alcoholic
a retarded alcoholic in love.
with alcohol.

school is..
starting to be loved. (:

i'm sure there are errors somewhere but i don't really feel like bothering right now.

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when your laughter's around
still there right in the face
and you lay on the ground
wonder often to space
it laugh at your bad
it take what they see
but you are good enough for me

i see you run to the moon
and you left us behind
was all just too cruel
or we're just to one kind

i hope you remember
i hope you're clear
that you are good enough for me
yeah you are good enough for me

you are learning how to fly away
my beauty queen from yesterday
and how's it feel to fall from grace
cos i never had the chance to say
that you were good enough
good enough for me

if i can go back to the place
there would be time i misunderstood
even though it's complicated
i can seem to overstate it i think finally
the moment should go
would you kiss me good bye

wherever you go
i hope you believe
that you are good enough for me
yeah you are good enough for me

i guess i wasn't very strong
i should've told you i was wrong
and i wish i had a second chance
cos i really need to understand

why you have to fly away
my beauty queen from yesterday
and how's it felt to fall from grace
i never had the chance to say
that you are good enough good enough
for me

thank you for standing up for my belief.

red cliff 2 was surprisingly awesome.
poor horses though.

i'm home.

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

i am going to cut down one tree this semester.
plus-sized notes,

because i don't want to bother reading small, small print anymore.

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you don't know how much...

i feel screwed.
somehow i'm not sure if i can convince them.

i'll try.
rawr.

i will honour your trust.

THERE ARE VACANCIES.

because it seems so weird that way..

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burnt out from fop chalet and a lot of other things i don't really care about
like my lost stylus.

school's starting and i don't think it'll be a bad thing.
at least..my life will be regimented again.

what else do i have to fear.

tq, vday, bring it on.

cos i'm not your princess
this ain't a fairytale
im gonna find someone someday
who might actually treat me well

this is a big world
that was a small town
there in my rearview mirror disappearing now

and it's too late for you and your white horse
not it's too late for you and your white horse
to catch me now

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yesterday, i told my mum i'm going to chalet.
and she asked "whose birthday again?"

loving the mad rush of..
of whatever.

it rocks. either way.

hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

anyway having lunch tmr at ahs (:
prawn meeeee.
kway chaaaaap.
caifaaaan
luncheon meat toasttttttt
chicken riceeeeeee.

omgggggggg.

i will tapao. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

potato salad for you? lmao

SO FREAKING TIRED.

at least it's the kind of journey that is hard when it begins,
and easier as it progresses.

love free k-ing though!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM!!

it's mine. all mine.
all you...

on that high.
and none of you really understands what it means to me.

it's good that you know what you really want.

and i am so full of myself that i believe everything i assume.

two things i forgot to announce

1. braces.
2. i am desperately looking for the piano score for daniel powter's am i still the one. desperately

cos i'm a creep
i'm a weirdo

happy 2009!
it's here so quickly
have been reading blogs, most of which belong to people i care about
and it seems like, almost everyone is unprepared
perhaps it's what happened in this final quarter of 2008
that took us all by surprise
that life can be so perfect and impossibly hard to live at the same time
we forged pretty amazing links among us all
fell in and out of love
smelt, breathed and tasted life
ate and drank good food and drinks
partied, chilled, and simply stayed at home to relax
we read, we watched, we thought, we laughed, we cried
we fell sick, we got injured, we got healthy and we got well
but most of all, we had each other.

i'm sorry i couldn't have kept the year a little longer
but i'm glad i did live it the way i did.
and maybe it's time to make some real resolutions that i'll really keep
i will challenge myself, and take it seriously.

friends, 2009 is here,
and i'm glad to have met up with almost all my friends from different, erm, generations.
6.12; the gays; 304.
we are all growing..and really old.

time is running so fast and it's leaving us behind

you think so?

nonetheless, it's been the time of my life
as green day and david cook swear by.

resolutions
put on a seatbelt, even in the backseat. (i've already started!)
take education seriously
take fun seriously

and i realised that some people treat resolutions as wishes
not doing anything and expecting them to come true
i'll not be one of them.

and i will find a job. once school's settled.

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and i'm sorry that i couldn't keep you here.