阿婆the GM - paper vulture ;

OMG super diu lian.

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i don't even need to tell myself anything anymore
because she sings it all out.
all her songs are just so apt.
some general, some specific.

i don't know if that's a good thing or not.

but i'm glad i have true friends around :)

remember i said it's hard keeping a secret?

well, it's hard finding out one too.

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and it was really really nice to see all of them again..

i am super tired

and i wanna sleeeeeeeep.

the connection here is weird.
sometimes fast, sometimes slow.

it's been fine so far,
just that i cannot BT!
sucks.

but lucky i got enough things to watch for now. :)
bt-ing can wait till weekends!

todo list:
brother and his graphic card.

it's hard keeping a secretttttttttshhhhhhhhhh.

ohmygod this is bad now.
one's at 2.2kbps, one's at 174kbps.
should i be happy or sad?

AND NO I'M NOT BT-ING!
it's firefox dl manager la.

hohohohho

ohno i am mad.

bastard alert.

i never should have wasted my time, my effort and my money.
and my time, effort, and money.
and my time, effort, and money.

in as many as three instances.

super tired.

concern is unnecessary.

i tried to type "cock-eye" on friendster as a photo caption
and i failed.

so much for being motivated and doing tutorials.
yawns.

i just wanna watch hsm2.

YES i've got it alr ;)

erm, my friend from overseas sent me the dvd heh.
shh.

you can handle it :)

and if you can handle it,
i can too.

got so many things to move tmr
suddenly i'm super sian diao by moving out.
yawns.

same two words, i know. (it's true, he doesn't need me anymore.)

Dear CHAI YU XUAN BRENDA,
Please be informed that you are required to undertake the Assessment as mentioned above on the following date/time:
Start Date/Time : Aug 27 2007 12:00AM
End Date/Time : Sep 9 2007 11:59PM
IVLE Assessment : Maple Quiz 1
Module Code : MA1102R
Module Title : CALCULUS

gonna be fun taking tests again!

going to ikea later with my mum! <3.
then when i come back i gotta make sure things are fine for the computer at home
then i have to do my tutorials!
and the thing called homework which is different from tutorials
cos it's like homework for lectures!
rocks la.

IVLE has waaaay too many things.
i'm afraid that i'll miss something uploaded once the volume gets terrible.
isn't there a better way to do things?

i've got lots of time now that something has been striked off my list
it just feels right to do this right here right now.

and i enjoy watching csi. :)

i just realised how dependent i am on google.

wow.

some things aren't as easy as Ctrl - Z.
once you've done them,
you can't turn back time.

the only thing you can do is to re-sort your priorities.

some things done wrong?
forget it.
and move on.

it means nothing.
(why do you always make me cry?)
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chapter closed.
2508071807

finally the weekend is here!
everything happening seems so unreal.
like moving into hall, tutorials starting, homework piling up.

it's horrible.

and these are all the things i should have slowly realised in subtlety
by the beginning of this week
but time has just took me around and turned me in circles

am i too caught up in certain things
and too untroubled in things that are also important?

aiyoh i should just shut up

remember,
number is number one,
but number 2, 3 and 4 can't be too far off.

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some friends stay forever :)

having a secret blog is good when you don't want other people to know what you're thinking
and when you just have to type it out/write it down.

priorities-hopping.

i really tried not to skip lectures!

now i don't know how i gave up what we had
for what we have today.

how different would it be?

i just keep blogging and blogging and blogging.
what for?

yeah he's fine, so am i.
i tell one person and three people know about it.

hall life doesn't seem so bad after all.

is it normal to regret everything you did in a week?

regret applying for the wrong thing
regret ballotting for the wrong tutorial
regret skipping lectures
regret certain things said and done
regret not considering everything before taking action
regret not being calculative enough
regret doing things that affects someone else
regret, just everything.
regret, just regret.

is it normal?

at least i know one choice was right
but is one out of a thousand a good ratio?

is it normal to feel stressed under my situation?
am i overreacting?
am i too concerned?
am i prioritising the wrong things?
certain things are number one, i'm sure.

but are number two, three and four in the right order?

things are pretty much spinning in my head now.
it seems like as long it hasn't anything to do with you,
i'm taking the wrong steps in all directions.

am i?
am i losing faith in what i can do?

she's his yellow brick road
leading him on
and letting him go as far as she lets him go
going down to nowhere

she puts on her make-up
the same way she did yesterday hoping everything's the same
but everything has changed

in my mind
everything we did was right
open your eyes
i'll still be by your side
how could i ever have been so blind?
you give me something to sleep to at night

he wakes up to the sound
so scared that she's leaving
he wishes she were still asleep next him
hoping she will change

in my mind
everything we did was right
open your eyes
i'll still be by your side
how could i ever have been so blind
you give me something to sleep to at night

you give me something to sleep to
and i all i know is
you give me something to dream to
when i'm alone and blue
don't leave me now
don't leave me now

don't leave me now
don't leave me now
don't leave me now

don't leave me now
don't leave me now
don't leave me now

in my mind
everything we did was right
open your eyes, i'll still be by your side
how could i ever have been so blind
you give me something to sleep to
something to sleep to
something to sleep to
at night

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(though all i can think of is what you were supposed to do)
thanks for all the concern :) (though all i can think of is what you said before)
i'm fine, really (: (though all i can think of is what you did before)
and i shall try not to skip lectures again. ;) (though all i can think of is you.)

if joyce says she's become more emo after moving in hall
i'm really recontemplating.
heh.

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it may..but..

of course it is
what are you thinking.
how would you have the mood to do anything?
(i just want to spend some time alone with you)
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and everything i feel for you i wrote down on one piece of paper
the one in your hand
you won't understand
how much it hurts to let you go

4th lecture in two days.

i hope this doesn't continue.

you don't know how much i want to undo all these.
you don't know how much i want all these to be undone.

i'm praying so hard i won't believe it. (let me be strong enough, let him be strong enough)

why does this always happen?

this is the 2nd lecture i'm skipping today.

i'm damn bored of school.

the things we did
the things we said

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they just won't go away.
can't sleep early anymore.

but i don't even care.

the past two to three weeks have gone by amazingly fast.

the stayover was less than a month ago
when all the girls spilled out in heart to heart talks :)
almost two weeks ago i was still working
a position i had gotten used to seeing myself in
two days later it was camp
and the 11 days went past wayyy too fast.

opinions formed as quickly as they died
friendships broke as quickly as they moulded

i blink my eye and suddenly i'm starting lectures again?!
i don't dare to blink again.
what if i blink my eyes then suddenly exams alr
siao liao.

not that i didn't expect all these.
i'm adapting and adapting pretty well i guess
but i could do away with all these
and have just one thing

and still be the happiest person on earth.

except that now i'm trying.

wow.
i'm finally done.

this feels weird.

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something more,
something less.

it's more and more, (what i feel)
and more and more (what i understand)
but less and less. (what i expect)

hohoho talk in circles more pls!!!!

BWAH.

the other thing i forgot to backup were my FONTS.

shiaaaaat reaaaaaal shiat.

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too many commitments?
both in and out of campus.

okay my dian nao is normal again

BUT ALL MY BOOKMARKS ARE GONE.

SHIAT.
let's hope i backed them up somewhere else.

damn long never update

laptop still screwed
life still screwed
fullstop.

camp was fun.
vikings full strength = two.

laptop spolit + 2 weeks of camp
= no time to read ppl blog + no time to tag + no time to blog + no time to bt + no time to read heroes novels online + sunburnt = sad sad sad

i just screwed up my laptop and i don't know how i did it.

i'm dreaming of a yesterday that has been
i'm dreading a today that isn't true
i'm longing for a tomorrow that should be
but the tears from all five oceans have dried up in one day

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it's fun being emo eh?

LOL.

urgh. inauguration sounds so unhappening now.
bah.
shopping pls :)

heh.

shrek is a terrible name for an SP.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASTRI!!! :)
p.s, guess why the colour ;)

am i right?
was i right?

if i didn't leave maybe we'd have a better chance.

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i'm back from camp!
the camp was pretty fun
i guess.
not during the games though,
more like during the forfeits!

vikings may not be the best in games or cheering
but i swear we think of the best forfeits!!
using the mike to cheer? so boring.
dancing with a random person? so boring.

haha it's fun when it comes to the vikings
but even more when it's always the same person who kenna!

okay i don't really feel like blogging about camp anymore.

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you tore my heart apart in more ways than i could ever bear.

somebody should just fuck off and die :)
no not you kim i still love you.

yawns.
somehow i can't wait to get it all over and done with.

i mean school.

camp tmr!
technically later
and very early.

but i damn long never go camp alr
so weird.

feels like i never go camp before hahahaha.

minimal is the optimum!