阿婆the GM - paper vulture ;

suddenly i feel so lost
it's like only know that ive really started to appreciate the loss of my blog.
not appreciate as in celebrate
appreciate as in, when it really gets to me.
just a sudden realisation?

i don't know if what i'm doing now is proper
nothing seems to be going right.
i screwed up my block test
and probably everything.

i dont know how to run my life anymore man.

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i really miss my old blog.
:(
it's like 3 years of me all gone
including my super old locked blog
i had 2 blogs on diary-x
one started in 2003, the other at the end of 2003.

i'm trying to recall my past
but now
even those very brief moments shared with you are lost.

i feel myself dying
poor orangeluv.
i would give u a proper burial if i could

me = orangeluv
orangeluv = me

who cares about that corny username anymore.
darn, i was sec3 can.

to a certain someone i dont really care about but really pisses me off:
with ur attitude, you think u can run for house comm?
even if you DO get in,
i wont give u a good time, stupid bitch.
u bloody shithead i've had enough of you.

orangeluv orangeluv orangeluv
i really feel like im in mourning right now.
i guess hulu and joseph feel the same way as me.

1200 entries all gone.
shitheads.

1200 pages of history all gone.
i swear dx daobi cos of an overload of entries.

dx rocks lar
i'll never be able to find my past like the past again.

screwed
TOTALLY SCREWED

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seems like it's happening to everyone else too.
dont know what to say man :
i should just learn to shut up about my own stuff.

i need to sit down and do some serious reflecting.

i miss that very feeling.

"it was just that very time when we were both looking for someone"

COOLMAN.

stay near to me
if you already are.

block test rocks
bluck test sucks
brenda is the best.

"well i was sitting, waiting, wishing..
you believed in superstition,
then maybe you'd see the signs.."

okay here i am again

im not exactly tired from all that studying
but i really wish it'd be over soon.

maaan.
this sucks.

the only time i'm wishing so hard
and nothing happens.

g'luck for block test everyone! =)

except you lucky tj people :\

woo i havent updated for so long
but that's because my brother made my comp landiao
well dont care about it first,
wait for after block test.

it's good that my computer spoils before block test so i can study
but it's not good too cos there's apparently alot of stuff on ivle
which is now affectionately known as Learning@Meridian.
yeah
and it's not good too that i have a bunch of vcds waiting to be watched!

so many things have happened since the last time i blogged
but the most recent (and i think the most happening) thing so far
is CAMPFIRE!!!!!!!!!!

omfg castor rocks my ass off.
heard lotsa negative things about the current batch of ogls
when i reached at first, castor was having their meeting
and everyone was SO dead lar.
but later during the campfire
we were HIGH LIKE MAD.
haha
ahgongs and ahmas rock!
even the older ogls like suhan went too =)
got closer to more of the castor ogls
even though we got 5th,
i bet we were the highest group of ahgongs and ahmas man!
it was well summed up,
in just three letters
O W S.
(:

it's pretty sad we wont be hearing much of the words alhena, vega, sargas and regulus next year
(i bet we'll be hearing much about castor! from ourselves la haha)
it's gonna be phobos, triton, callisto and atlas.
and we're miranda.
wooooo.
no more orange vega, it's green triton now.
sian no more bright orange to go with bright yellow and bright red.

sargas got 1st WELLDONE MAN.
and you, that castor freshie who put the cookies at the front
thanks for making my pants dirty.

pizza rocks, jelly drink rocks, cooling tea rocks.
sargas rocks, vega rocks, alhena rocks, reggie rocks, CASTOR ROCKS
castor ogls rock, castor freshies rock, castor ahgong and ahmas rock.
even jkhoo rocks, even though he's now captain of regulus-atlas.
haha, and izzat rocks too lar can.
and ava rocks.
CAMPFIRE ROCKS.

and block test sucks.

iwyatms.

but i know i can't.

):

woo yesterday was a holiday
i love mj can!? =)

went to ljs to study with justea
not bad quite productive.

saw a lot of ppl i know can haha
saw the mj gays first, they went to eat at ljs
then they went to watch wolf's creek
ahahahaha it sucks right =x
then i saw the tj gays, going to meet them i think.
also saw lucien and his friend.
then i also saw hulu and joanne
also saw gl, wanqi and hoting
and shawn and his friends.
SO MANY!
but because the gays all ate in ljs
i got alot of free fries. (:

met up with lg ivan domy hongji and wayne
they went to watch fd3
me n joycie nv watch cos we dont want to haha
in the end only ivan domy hongji and wayne went to watch
actually 4 guys go watch movie together should be quite gay
but cos the movie is fd3,
i think it's quite ok lar haha. (:

me n joycie feet so tired after that.
i go home i really landiao.
very tired k

i slept at 11 super early.
time to mug today
because i think tmr got castor 7 outing.

next time i'm bored
i shall go to best denki to shop shop shop again
looking at refrigerators with joycie and lg is super fun!
and ovens and deep fryers too.

today cooked chicken chop for dinner with my sis
got chicken (duh), mash potato, mushroom soup, brocolli (spelt like that?) and orange juice
but i havent eat yet
because it is meant for dinner.
ok i'm talking like i dont know what im talking about
but i do ok.

i want a sony vaio. :(
my mum's getting a fujitsu notebook either for herself, my sis or the family.
because she says fujitsu notebooks are very nice
but i bet it's because her company have corporate links with fujitsu
and she can get a discount.

lately my mum has alot of money
actually enough to buy n70 for both me and my sister.
but she bought a washing machine
so now she got no money.

and i dont want n70 already anw.
i want k610i (:

but i have this bad feeling it's gonna be sooooooooooooooooo EXPENSIVE.

but i want.
i'll get it as long as it's not more than 200-300 bucks more expensive than n70.

but also depends on how it looks like.
hope it looks better than it does in the magazine.

*edit
actually the k610i doesnt look that bad lar.
and the spacing out of the buttons are quite good.
=) =) =) =)
but never mention the price.
but news articles say it's affordable.
so i shall believe the news articles.

sorry kim, because i have to use ur phone for a while more (:

i wanted you to know i love the way you laugh
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
i keep your photograph and i know it serves me well
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain

cos im broken
when im lonesome
and i dont feel right when you're gone away

you've gone away
you dont feel me anymore

the worst is over now and we can breath again
i wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
there's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain

cos im broken
when im open
and i dont feel like i am strong enough

cos im broken
when im lonesome
and i dont feel right when you're gone away

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i feel landiao-ded.
i'm so tired!

i'm dreaming of speaking to you again.

i keep having these weird recurring flashbacks
that occur at different situations,
but im certain they all lead back to the same thing.
like the water droplet theory in numb3rs.

but the weirdest thing
is that
there's no image in my mind.

i have no idea what those flashbacks are.
i just know they are flashbacks.

im catching up a little on my work.
missing fridays help alot man
friday's tutorial day!
i have another weekend to tie up the loose ends.

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i believe you'd like me to do the same to you
but i cant.

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_____________ tell me you've given up.

save diary-x!
join the movement.

argh.
stupid.
i just realised something about myself
something i sort of knew all along but never acknowledged.
and now i just did.

i cant stand not being in total control of certain situations.
especially when already so many things are bugging me
and i feel super frustrated
and when i want to go do something else
i cant.

so i end up with nothing to do.
i sit around stoning, rotting
WASTING MY TIME

i've got not much time already lar!
no i'm not dying of cancer or "intestinal infection"
i've missed a week of school
how much time do you expect me to have

some of my classmates said my intestine exploded.
BAOZHA

what a cool way of expressing that man.
woooooooooooo.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HULU! =)
MAY YOUR DAYS BE FILLED WITH As AND A1s and BANANAS!
=D

i felt apprehensive about today actually
lucky only short day.
one lecture, one tutorial and one gp.
had it pretty easy

and it felt good to know that this time
everyone was missing the lecture =)

i've drawn up this super extensive todolist
and i wonder if its the right thing to do man.
it's super stressful.

this sucks. heh.

but i'm glad im in school again!

mj did super well apparently.
hung the red banner damn fast lar!
holiday on friday PLEASE!