阿婆the GM - paper vulture ;

the horriblest thing in my life just happened
i realised that im exactly the sort of person i hate!

on a lighter tone though,
i love preparing dinner okay hahahahaha
it rocks to see dishes change from




to

which technically is

with the seasoning,

and when coming out from the steamer,

LOOKING GOOD


THIS

i know the uncooked one probably looks a lot more appetizing with the two egg yolks
but trust me,
you wont wanna eat that.

and also, these



becoming


I LOVE BROCOLLI

life is meaningless without veggies!
omg, i'm veggie!
ok that is SO SO SO ANCIENT

veggiE^_^ = gay
apothegm = (y)
brenduhh = ROCKS ROCKS ROCKS

some other random photos :)


look at this! FROM HONGKONG
omg i bet it smells of chankinfung =D



i think any other kind of handsome boys are able to make me happier that that one far far away
;)

YEAHHHHHHHH
i'm high now lar. \:

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edit* reading through the archives of my last year's birthday smses.
so sweet
so many people remembered
but of course it was cos of the date
but i realised i dont know half of their birthdays =x
:'(
IM SO MEAN

and how come i'm in everyone's life but yours.
and how come everyone but me is in your life.

i dont wanna hear all these anymore la okay
give me more of

1. WAKE UP, dont be dumb
2. whatever u lar, you know what's best for you
3. its too obvious lar
4. isn't it time that you should be over it
5. HUH AGAIN

k la k la, no more okay.
i promise i wont do all these anymore.
it's MOVING-ON-DAY
and decisions made today
are not to be changed

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and a silly thing happened just now
all a misunderstanding. sorry ivan and wayne,
heh. just had to take it out on u all lar

dancing elephants dancing to no rhythm
dancing elephants never needed intensive singing lessons
dancing elephants dancing to no rhythm
dancing elephants are only elephants now

for the music has stopped.

omg today is so horrible
I AM SO TIRED CAN. :(

okay i was supposed to flame this shithead lar
but i'm too tired now
so i shall flame him tmr.

but for anything else, he's a sick shit
i guess he doesnt have a mirror at home that poor thing
but he can always look into his girlfriend's eyes right.
if his conscience allows him to (:

okay, all the best to myself for tmr.

and happy birthday wc!! (:

YIHAO I NEED MY COMP LAR I PAY YOU I PAY YOU

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and thanks to that person who came to my blog, ripped the photos
and sent it to someone else lar (:
you're very welcome anyway.
unless you're my friend you are not forgiven.

i'm still here

im hooked on you i need a fix i cant take it
just one more hit i promise i can deal with it
i'll handle it quit it just one more time then that's it
just a little bit more to get me through this

= the nicest part of the entire song la

okay i did a LITTLE mugging today.
and i'm feeling pretty guilty now
cos besides mugging, i also
went out for dinner ate alot of food at home watched a little tv swept the floor took in the clothes and did ALOT of sudoku and colour junction

ok the first half might have made me sound like some guaikia
but i did housework cos i really was sick of econs la.
sian
and i hate biochem :(

you fill up my life with pride and honour

p.s the blue area is all clouds not sky!
and see, the sun is so small! that black dot's the sun!

i cant believe it!
the clouds today are blue.

it's just so beautiful okay
the sun's shining so brightly, but it's hanging so high
and its light spreads out anyway.

the blue clouds cover the entire sky (at least those visible from my window)
and i'm sure that you're that near to me. :)

plus! photos from the match and after that




and just another plus,
my favourite boy on earth :)



SO CUTE

when i was still using dx, i did this colorgenics profiling thing.
i suddenly thought of something it said about me
but i couldnt remember it anymore
and it was gone
so i did another one
and voila! it's totally different!

You have a vivid imagination and this is good. Great inventors, explorers all had inventive, imaginative minds. Your friends and acquaintances may consider you over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming. So what ? this is a part of your character and charm.

You are working extremely hard - perhaps even above and beyond the call of duty. You are preparing for the future and therefore trying to build a firm trouble-free foundation upon which you may base all of your dreams and aspirations.

You feel unhappy because you feel that you are not able to obtain the co-operation of those around you. All you would like at this time would be to achieve harmony within your circle.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

it's over now :)
4-2.

but it was okay though!
the whole match was EXHILARATING (is that how u spell it?)
it was great seeing the guys play so well can
and i remembered last year when i didnt know anything about soccer
and i thought a penalty goal was considered half a goal la :
omg so bimbo.
then this year, i watched every single match (ok nearly, i missed the semis)
and im sure not only us, everyone could see how much we were improving.

2 33 35 36 7 18 21 22 3 20 25 10 11 9 ALL ROCKS LA OKAY :)

soccer aside,
our class split when going to the match
two buses..the guys on one the girls on one
but i was on the guys' bus and elton was on the girls' bus :
not that it mattered anw
had a really nice heart to heart talk with ryan! :)
and i'm really really honoured.
and it seems like to ryan, i'm the kind of girl that will cry easily.
lol

had a not so nice heart to heart talk with wayne and eeks.
eeks' was better
wayne u shithead, one day i'm gonna dig out all ur secrets from the pit of ur stomach.
;)

and i'm really glad to have friends like you guys :)
tri em astri nafio adeline shir joycie joycie ryan wayne ivan eeks domy lai hongji jay mok

want to give u all my heart

u know that how'd u be defined in the dictionary quiz thing everyone's doing
it's random lar, and every hit gets a different result.

so i decided to compile the first three results that i got in order

brenda [noun] : sexually stunning, visually attractive, a person who makes a living suing celebs.

I AM NOT KIDDING.
haha

settling the testimonial is harder than i thought
i guess i'm not so good at all these bhb things after all.
YES wayne, i am not!

i am remembering all the times we spent together when i bought that plate of satay from you, when i met u out of pure coincidence at the bus stop, that chat we had over the seas. the tys u gave to me, i'm still keeping them. the gift u gave to me, i'm still keeping it. the movie ticket stubs, i'm still keeping them. the vcd i lent to you, i dont dare to even touch it. all my prized possessions, they hold no meaning. oh, i really remember those times when u asked me if i was okay when my nick sounded sad, and you didnt know it was you i was talking about. when you really cared. do you still keep my gifts to you? do u still remember me even, just as a friend?

writing testimonials suck lar.
think i shan't write in point form. so hard!

i'm glad i've found a new friend in an old friend like you.
just dont let my story be makebelieve.

eeks! and domy and lg's hand. lks pretty gay right haha



*photo removed due to strong objections :)






my father, when he was just a child





BIG LIZARD spotted in mj! not a lizard ba, kodomo/komodo dragon. which one is the toothpaste brand ah?









with sutapia in canteen! :)








dingqiang! =D halfway through gossiping lol




with ahma at big walk!
with em em em em!
my favourite A! she looks a little shocked though. hm
THE END THE END THE END WE MADE IT
with my dearest daughter with the sun glaring in our FACES
some cool new year outfit i made with emily. haha
me and em in compass after making that outfit!
me and ryan my sonny boy and ivan's fingers lol
a very very old family photo :)
my shirt =D






LOOK AT AHMA ACTING CUTE. and eeks' the cutest alien. and joycie and astri lk so bitchy. for once im not the most.







i love photos :)
and i love all my friends.
I WANT A PHOTO WITH QIAN AND KIM AND CLA :(

okay it's been a tough weekend for me
enough fighting with myself
i don't want to face this anymore lar.

went to the big walk with the 304 ppl on sunday
but technically, it was a 304 girls day out.
haha, me ahma joycie astri adeline emily and lou were present!
nafio cldnt join us cos she was feeling a little sick
but it was great day nonetheless!
lotsa phototaking!!

the slacker guys, walk only 2+, 3 km then go to mac already!
thanks la, we the uber strong and determined girls
finished the whole thing!
YAY:)
saw the house comm ppl there, more of the j1s though
got j2s like izzat, justin, chanliling and gladys etc.

haha. went to bugis after that
shopped around in seiyu
ooh chanel rocks can but so expensive!
moneh moneh.
haha doing some chick shopping la, the guys dunno go where shop also
laiguang left a while after that
then we went to join eeks and lormee
took neoprints =D so nice lar
ROCKS OKAY
haha.

then after a while all of us went home
i ate with lormee and eeks in the fc.
they took bus back and i took train.
fell asleep on the train while standing can!
then i always got those little jolts and suddenly trip abit la
SO MALU!
but never mind haha.

just came back from dvinci with 304 ppl again jz now.
shir astri ahma me ivan hongji eeks wayne lai
sorry em and nafio! made u all come all the way down only to go home again
not bad la the movie
made the history part a little clearer
but quite different from the book.
but never mind la, can take movie and book as two seperate stories.
but i didnt think the cryptex would look like that. haha.

before the movie we were just sitting around in food court talking
made my mood much better.
hongji's so amusing!
i'm sorry, didnt mean to bastard you
but it's really for entertainment k? haha
i like sitting in one circle like that to chat. :)

quoting eekee: mc's the best medicine la!

happy birthday weijie! :)

<<<
my new baby :)

bought it before band concert.
i think i was very handsome yesterday. :)
lol.

the band concert was wonderful.
the last band concert i went to was the vs one in 2004 i think
with the 612 people.
nothing can ever be better than the sound quality of a live concert
plus sitting in second row!
only after interval though.

some things cropped up before the concert which left me a little flustered.
but it was all okay in the end.
too many things were happening at one time!

i liked the flowers we got for tri and mok though.
haha.

saw my lovely bijin!
dont be jealous ;)

the band concert made me think of drama.
nothing beats meeting every other day for a performance
all the planning, the worrying, the brainstorming
of course that includes the quality time spent with everyone.
it's hard to hate someone when you work with them all the time you know
unless they're really uncooperative lar.

i miss drama so much
and sometimes i wish i had some way to continue
all that effort for a stage performance
all that glamour
having friends coming to support
and all the hidden blood and tears behind everything.

i liked drama so much
and i think i would still love drama very much if i were involved
but all my fault la, never take time out to go back.

hm. 翔鹰 2001 之桃花源记， 翔鹰 2003 之家事 Y 扬
reminds me, my Y 扬 shirt is still missing.

okay i think this entry is supposed to be on the band concert right.
haha
but it was really great lar :)
though i couldnt really concentrate on the first half haha.

but those ushers really suck
bloody fkers.

and i really like my new bag!

sometimes it's not about why
it's just about that something that's telling you
nothing good is gonna happen
and naturally, you'll want to avoid it
so sometimes
it's really not about why.

leaving that gaping hole to fill
creating a void to make space
seeking unseekable answers

dwelling on past memories
munching on past memories
munching on lost memories

tearing upon every thought
closing down upon the reminder
building everything in significance

eliminated

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all these, just for you?
just for nothing la, c'mon.
wake up.

i'm wishing time could turn back
when everything that mattered in my life
was everything
but you.

CARPARK FULL
please go somewhere else.

时间分割成对角
停止你对我的好
瓦解我们的依靠

k la
dont bluff me already
i'm dumb lar okay.

just too many things running through my mind now
and somehow
i wish i had never done it.

thank you kim for calling!
actually i'm online, just not on msn.
(:
i love kim lar. =D

happy birthday tw!
hope u're reading my blog though :)

i have no idea what i did that for okay
and now i dont know if im regretting it or not
but at least i tried right. :(
bet all of u are gonna say im dumb again.

i bought my wallet already YAY!

hm. many birthdays coming up.

can you tell me what's the significance of it all?
i guess i'll never understand
but i am seeking answers
yes i am
but i will stop
because i know how irritating it gets when answers are seeked perpetually
even though it never matters anyway.

i hate it when something is given to me and taken away again.

work is piling up work is piling up
c'mon b
it's time to smack that ass and get moving!

OKAY

the worst week of my life is over
it's time to move on

choir concert
music xtraordinaire
council investiture
band concert

essay test - int'l trade
chem test - alot of things
econs nus mcq quiz

ok maybe this week wasnt the worst week of my life.

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congrats shir! mx was a blast :)

i am blessed to be able to take up this chance to show how much i care.
:)

and yes, it was great.

and no, i don't understand what's going on in their heads.

sunday is mothers' day sunday is mothers' day.

on the way home just now..

me: eh joel, mothers' day coming leh
joel: i celebrate last week already
me: i mean me lar, im ur mum right
joel: no lar, who say one
me: i don't care, where's my present
joel: no lar, why must give you
me: u dont give me then i dont give you lor
joel: give me for what, it's mothers' day not children's day leh
me: ...
joel: oh, u mean my birthday ah. haha.

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sorry cla! i'm really sorry
i really wanted to go :(
nevermind, im sure i'll see you again soon! =)

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it is amazing how "realisation" can turn my whole life around
especially when i realise that i've never left you behind at all
it's just that you didn't follow me through this journey.
and i don't know why,
i just don't really care.
maybe because actually, i've realised it long ago.

i forgot to mention something very important in the previous entry

thank you kim joycie wayne joycie for asking after me =)
i love you!

yes i'm ok =)
so yeah you don't need to ask.

spent the weekend finishing up too much work.
haha.
i finally managed to get my ass down to econs!
but that's because ive done maths and chem already
call me a mugger
i'm proud of being one!

but i bet most of my answers are wrong anyway
and im still gonna screw up econs.
lol

i'm gonna get my bag
i'm gonna get my bag.

BUT I'M NOT FREE!

it's the peak season man
forgive me if i cant find anyone to help you.
but don't worry lar,
i'm just trying to be funny.

elections are so boring. -)

OMG i was wondering what i needed to do tmr after sch
besides watching rj match.
I'M GOING TO LU YUAN
hahaha
totally forgot abt it. sorry sk!
but seems like now i have to leave the match early.
lucky silas' going too.
time to go to tj in mj uniform and laugh at all the noobs cos mj's pro! (sk said that)

once in a while, i hope to have you back in my life
but it's ok
cos your mere memories give me more reason to walk on.

i'm leaving you behind already

something happened today that made me really wanna cry
because it makes me unable to take my mind of certain things
and the fact that i wasn't prepared at all didn't help.

the previous time i blogged i forgot to talk about 2.4
really thanks alot to joycie wayne jerreme sarah don and everyone else who was cheering for me :)
and thanks alot to gl for motivating me to sprint even faster at the end
owe a lot to you man! ;)

emily: hope you'll get through :) you rock la!

tritri: i know things have been pretty hard for u recently, be strong k? :)

lai, ivan, ryan, edmund, and the ava guys:
thx for just being one of the reasons for me to smile :) go hongji! my favourite future MP.

joyce, joyce, astri, adeline: for putting the ultimately biggest smile on my face :)

fiona, shirlynn: for snatching my boyfriend away LOL

steven: for just being there

silas: haven't thanked you for the dedication yet right? :) appreciated!

okay i sound like i'm going to die
but i'm not okay.

i don't know leh
weird lar
it's one of the freeest weekends ever okay
no tests for us
no ava projects, no nothing
but i'm feeling stressed.

heh. thanks everyone for tagging.
i like to read my tagboard :)

lalalalala,
off i go to put myself into a better mood.

and N-O NO i'm not saying anything :)

there are so many people who mean so much to me
and sometimes some of the stupidest littlest things they say to me make me wanna cry.

i'm glad it's all over, but i know i'm not doing a very good job right now.
and thats basically my fault
cos im not asking for the help i need

apothegm-
apothegm.

this month rocks
9th is hongji's birthday
12th is my dad's birthday and vesak day
13th is my ahma's lunar birthday
14th is joel's birthday and mother's day.

ching ching ching.
you see the candles
you see the joy
i see the money dripping out of my pocket.

did two nice things today
but ended up with a ball landing on my specs
leaving a large scratch on my nose.
darn.

who said it pays to be nice?

but i like being nice,
so i shall continue.
so all of you blardy shits out there
better not try to cheat me