阿婆the GM - paper vulture ;

SO COLD WEATHER SO COLD
OMFG OMFG OMFG

): don't like cold weather.

hm, plans for the future?
i still intend to be very very rich.

and i mean VERY.

i like to shop!
i wld like to post photos here but i'm a little lazy
HAHAHA.

okay i'll do em by tmr i hope.
including my entry on my manymany clothes.
hahaha.

ohwell.

is it possible? HEH HEH HEH.

this coldness isn't nice.

packing is fun
i think?
hahaha.

out i go with bar to find ahma!

going out is fun.

TRUE fun.
(:

i don't wanna spend my life jaded, waitin'
to wake up one day and find
that i let all these years go by
wasted

shopping!

i'm glad to get if off my chest PHEWS
tralalala.

happy birthday kt!
happy birthday joseph!

when are you coming?

okay i'm so so so late
the wind is fstrong
and i love it la.

hahaha.
out i go!

chelsea just won
ballack needs a haircut
jose needs to lose weight

and i need an explanation!!!!
HOW COME CAN LIKE THAT ONE!
my favourite handphone in the whole wide world
just deleted all the messages in the phone memory.

to be optimistic,
thank god the rest of the data is intact
(phonebook,pictures,etc)
but tbh my pictures are just there for, fun.

i've uploaded all of them.

but my messages.
BAH.

BAH BAH BAH.

and omg poor her
i still can't believe it happened.

i'm still waiting.

okay i'm done with all the shows i can watch today
because the rest are either not out yet
or still dling. hahaha.

and i'm hungry.
maybe i should have eaten more.

haha -
it doesnt make sense at all.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
why like that
content removed from dailymotion
and youtube is screwing up

no no no no ):
waste of time!!!!!

ohwell.
find myself further and further from reality.

UNTIL THAT DAY

shit la after i finish one series to watch
i'm addicted to another.
good recommendation!

is it a lot better this way?

i am so undecided.
help me! :(

i am NEVER trusting you again.
can't you just be a little more dependable?

tralalalalalala
lovelovelove freaks and killers
;)
62 + 8 + 8+ 14!

so tell me,
how am i supposed to make you feel better
when i don't know what's wrong with you?

losing strength.

omg i'm so sad youtube is down
shd've shopped today and youtubed ytd.

nvm at least there's bt hohohohoho.

i'm this close to giving up.

it's like a whirlwind inside of my head

FUN.

oh i love shopping.

craig david - one last dance

what is it that's pulling me back?
my guess is,

yeah.

mcfly - too close for comfort

going out going out going out!
shopping here i come (:

feeling really really weird now.
fell asleep to wake up to this feeling.
haha.

earlier on i received a call from farid
he was in town w sufain and steven
all 3 of them! haha.
short but enjoyable phone calls just make my day :)

i don't understand...

good heavens

i dreamt about, god forbid,
YOUTUBE.

i dreamt that people from a forum (NO IDEA WHAT FORUM i dont go on forums anymore)
were playing this game at, i dunno
some ulu place? which isn't that ulu?
and somehow, i was in front of the comp AND at the location for the game
at the same time?

and
those playing the game were being videoed
and somehow
there was a live feed to youtube?
i don't know.

what a weird dream.

makes me feel uneasy.
i woke up 2 times in the middle of the dream
lying flat on my back facing up

although i shifted my position to face sideways both times after that

and i woke up the 3rd time
also facing up

WTFWTFWTF

8oox6oo is my favourite resolution.

i think?

but .gif is defo my favourite format.

tnmrknn THATS THE WAY PLEASE

surprisingly i've begun to enjoy blogging again
despite blogging everyday, like a few thousand times.
i thought i'd get sick of it actually
but when you're bored and have nothing to do online
you can just go blog
and after you blog
you can redo everything you did before you blog
it's an unwritten rule, isn't it?
so you got another 2 hours worth of things to do hahahaha.

some loser.

well i still miss dx a lot!
the site's still on it's way on getting up
but i've no intention of contributing hahaha.

tbh i dont remember html anymore.

blogger layouts are so not easy to do!
some weird substitution forms with all the < > $ etc.
:/

well, move on pls!

and wow, i was having breakfast 5 min ago
and now i'm having lunch
oh, the bothers of time
or the lack of it

well it's been a long time since i was tired at this time.

wentworth miller does lag up my blog a little
but who cares :)

some cute!


some funny!!!!!


some happy, laugh more pls!


i've been youtubing a lot.

glad to get it off my chest.
thanks joycie (:

im glad to hear you're enjoying your life right now

had a chitchat session w joycie and lawrence just now
haha nowadays i talk on phone i dont bitch anymore
i just, space out and crap.

how fun.

are you happy?

why aren't you speaking.

if that's the truth i'll have to be patient to get what i want.
or i'll just end up ruining my life.

well, sorta.

didn't think i'd think that much.
about _____________

tralalalala.

at least i did take a bus today (:

i need to go shopping. ):
AND stop whining.

how long has it been?
just half a year actually
but it seems so far away
because i'll never forget.

one last time, i promise.

BAH.

do you have any idea what you're talking about?
if you don't
please shut up

cos words can hurt.

it only proves something
that shouldn't be proven.

you?

his voice just calms me down.
nah not anybody in particular
craig david.
HAHAHA

okaaay only two songs that can but ohwells.

8 more episodes!!
then i can stop feeling obliged to watch.

then i can move on.

good news everyone,
i stepped out of my house today.
to buy ice cream from the uncle downstairs.
yay. l:

well tri, i don't like the sound of BAH too.
BAH sounds very, unhappy.
well it IS supposed to sound unhappy
but i don't feel any better BAH-ing
so i shan't BAH unless i really really have to BAH
let's BAH less often k tri (:

aabcdef3queen. = 9

if you asked me in 10 days ago,
i'd never have thought i'd be saying this
but yeah i do.
miss school.
like what lg said, just the social aspect.

and maybe that orderly system that won't screw up
gives some sense of direction.

hm. i hope it does happen
i'd like to visit, and i'd like to visit.

;)

it's a wonder how all our lives has changed so much
is it normal
or is it that we don't make an effort anymore?

and i know i complain everyday
but i really do wish to be on the other side of this door

how far/near 2006 may seem
i can't deny that there's too much i miss about it.

has time changed?
or has time subconsciously changed us?

one last dance. (:

i'm grateful,
but i'm sorry, it stops there.

boredom doesn't seem so bad after all
since it's already been forever.

some really really weird days
i can't explain

OMG OMG OMG

there's MUSHROOM SWISS GRILLED CHICKEN NOW.

letmeoutletmeoutetmeoutletmeoutletmeoutetmeoutLETMEOUT

what a horrible way to end it all.

and my life these days,
and probably the week after
has been/is going to be unbearably monotonous.

wakeup eat turn on comp youtube check mail eat youtube check mail turn off comp sleep.

thank god for youtube or what?

i'd rather be out there, i swear.
with ANYONE of you.

why give it all to me and take it all away?
..
guess i'll never know.

can you spot the difference?

BORED.
yes i'm angry.
I AM BORED.
i'm angry at you for even suggesting it, or merely thinking about it.
staying at home for a few days was bad enough for me
cos it only shows how much you actually know about me,
do i really have to do this the entire week?
or rather, how much you don't.
and more?

well BAH, cos there's nothing else i want to say.
BAHBAHBAHBAHBAHBAH BORED

would saturday be fine?

if there's anything you need to know about me,
i absolutely detest being treated like an ignorant kid.
cbcbcbcbcbcbcbcbcbcbcbcbcbcbcb
GOOD DAY TO YOU :)

you've taken away more than just my sanity
you've taken away everything else that ever mattered to me.

if only it wasn't me.

i never meant the things i said to make you cry
can i say i'm sorry
it's hard to forget
and yes i regret
all these mistakes

i don't know why you're leaving me but i know
you must have your reasons
there's tears in your eyes
i watch as you cry
but it's getting late

was i invading in on your secrets
was i too close for comfort
you're pushing me out
when i'm wanting in

what was i just about to discover
when i got too close for comfort
driving you home
guess i'll never know

remember when we scratched our names into the sand
you told me you love me
but now that i find
that you've changed your mind
i'm lost for words

and everything i feel for you i wrote down on one piece of paper
the one in your hand
you won't understand
how much it hurts to let you go

was i invading in on your secrets
was i too close for comfort
you're pushing me out
when i wanted in

what was i just about to discover
i got too close for comfort
driving you home
guess i'll never know

all this time you've been telling me lies
hidden in bags that are under your eyes
and when i asked you i knew i was right
but if you turn your back on me now
when i need you most
but you just let me down, down, down
would you think about what you're about to do to me
and back down

was i invading in on your secrets
was i too close for comfort
you're pushing me out
when i'm wanting in

what was i just about to discover
i got too close for comfort
you're pushing me out
when i'm wanting in, yeaaah.

was i invading in on your secrets
was i too close for comfort
you're pushing me out
when i'm wanting in

what was i just about to discover
i got too close for comfort
driving you home
guess i'll never know

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somehow i find myself wondering where you'll be today.
old songs bring new meanings after each time frame, don't they.

how come i feel so guilty?

abandoned?

well, who would have thought.
i'm actually relieved.
i think i'm starting to lose the tendency of being over-reliant on others
and i'm glad for that.
it IS something to be glad for.

tbh, i'm pretty sick of __________
ptbs
but i won't even think of going the other way.

"you need to be afraid to be brave"

i'll listen to you like you listened to me
but you've gotta wait till i stop ptbw.

--------------

do i really have to walk down that path?

it sucks when you're a victim of nobody but circumstances.

i can't wait for the time to pass even more quickly right now.

i don't want to live in your shadows anymore.

-------

maybe i should go ikea one day,
and make the best of this long break
to seriously clear up my room.

it'll take me a lot of determination to walk out of YOUR shadows though.
but i'll try.

i miss work.

"i don't want to be the one just to love then lose" -ryan cabrera - fall baby fall

one last dance with you
even though what we have is strong
both of us know that we've done wrong
you could lose everything
need to give it up

just one last dance with you
for all the moments that we shared
all the lies they don't compare
you gotta go back to him

and i realize that every time i see your face i know
there's a part of me that can't bear to let you go

and it would give my heart
give you the world, risk losing everything i got
i'd give it all to you
though i don't wanna stop
i know it's the right thing to do
yeah

one last dance with you
so hard to find the words to say
but i can't see any other way
girl you've risked everything
time to give it up

just one last dance with you
and though it breaks my heart to leave
we both know it's time to let it breathe
you gotta go back to him,

girl i realize that every time i see your face i know
there's a part of me that can't bear to let you go

and i would give my heart
give you the world, risk losing everything i got
i'd give it all to you
though i don't wanna stop
i know it's the right thing to do
yeah

so many times we tried to hold back
we been here before now girl
and it feels so cruel, yeah
a million tears won't change the fact that
i find it hard to play the game
when i feel like i'm the one to blame

but i would give my heart
give you the world, risk losing everything i got
i'd give it all to you
though i don't wanna stop
i know it's the right thing to do
yeah

and i would give my heart
give you the world, risk losing everything i got
i'd give it all to you
and make our peace with god
i know it's the right thing to do
yeah

one last dance with you

time is passing by very very slowly.

don't.
don't even start to pity me

and i know i may sound like a total wreck, but it's only because i've tried too hard to cope with EVERYTHING all by myself, and once one bit of me crumbles, all of me does. but don't worry because crumbs are not what's only left of me, i'll still grow and be strong, i hope.

how does it feel to be an incredible support and a pillar of strength to someone?

it feels better to share only because you don't know what used to happen. i find it amazing that i can open up to someone about things i've never thought of telling others.

strangers become friends, because it's easiest to share things with strangers, people who are entirely oblivious to what's happened before meeting the other. and once they be friends, it gets hard to confide, and friendships are broken, with new ones formed with new strangers.

that's the way it works, doesn't it? (i wanna be young again.)

stop acting like i'm going to die cos i'm not.

i swear, it's nothing serious
i'll get better within a week

then i'll have to start to think of how to convince her.

if only i could go out
take in some fresh air.

i'm not used to being awake at this time in the morning.

well if you ever become one of them
listen up real closely
cos i wont tell you again, boy

and even though i know the bad times never hurt you
a run in with the wrong crowd
can never, you never hurt
if you believe in yourself now sometimes
then i'll believe in you

that there's reasons darling you'll never know
and i cant even start to explain how they go
yeah there's reason im asking you now to hold on
yeah and dont you leave me alone in this life
yeah in this life

hey i see what you're doing now
ive seen a lot of things but never quite like that
because before long im gone and im not coming back
and once i leave you know that i am never yeah, never
coming back to this place in my life
cos im all that you have

but there's reasons darling you'll never know
and i cant even start to explain how they go
yeah there's reason im asking you know to hold on
yeah and dont you leave me alone in this life

if you believe in yourself now sometimes
then i'll believe in you

but there's reasons darling you'll never know
and i cant even start to explain how they go
yeah there's reason im asking you now to hold on
yeah and dont you leave me alone in this life
leave me alone in this life

fuck la!
ytd my contact lens in my right eye either dropped or went into my eyelid
AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHICH.

i spent the whole time of breakfast trying to take it out,
not knowing whether it was inside or not!
rub until my eye swollen.

go home put eyedrops also never come out
so i decided that it dropped out alr.

but i still have that funny feeling in my eye
hope it's psychological!!

and now my eyes still swollen la.
feel like taking off today.
but not when i'm trying to ask to start late on sat.

wait im confused. do i work on sat?
/:

see, i was right to say fuck la!

and you know what else?

after breakfast i took 28 home,
and i fell asleep at the bus stop right after i saw the bus coming!
so i probably missed about 2 buses.

then the next bus came and i hurriedly boarded.
no not wrong direction and not miss my stop or wrong bus.
i fell asleep on the bus, and because i was too tired to even zip up my bag,
i kept holding on to my handphone when i was sleeping.

i kept holding on to my handphone.

INSTEAD OF MY EZ-LINK.

NABEH!
$2.65 gone! or 2.40?!

GRRR.

but since it's 2.30 now
which is after 2,

i am a few hundred bucks richer as of now

SO I SHALL SMILE!

not really.
SHIT LA WHERE IS THAT CONTACT LENS!

in my eye??
or did it drop?!

WHERE IS IT!

lets just believe that it dropped okay.
i dont wanna find out that i slept with a folded lens in my eye!!!!!

and i miss everyone. ):

don't keep calling,
you're freaking me out.

where are you

i know you're out there baby,
somewhere,
where?

there's someone out there for me (i know there's somebody out there)
i know she's waiting so patiently
can you tell me her name (somebody tell me her name)
these lifelong searches gonna drive me insane (that's right)

how does she laugh how does she cry
what's the colour of her eyes
does she even realise i'm here

where is she, where is she, where is she
where is this beautiful girl
who is she, who is she
who's gonna complete my world
where is she, where is she,
where is this beautiful girl
who is she, who is she
who's gonna complete my world

lalalalalalala lalalalala lalalalalalala, where are you

i'm staring out at the sky (i see you baby)
praying that he will walk in my life
where is the man of my dreams yeah (i'm here)
i'll wait forever how silly it seems

how does he laugh how does he cry
how does he cry
does he even realise i'm here

where is he, where is he, where is he
where is this beautiful guy
who is he, who is he
who's gonna take me so high
where is he, where is he,
where is this beautiful guy
who is he, who is he
who's gonna take me so high

lalalalalalala lalalalala lalalalalalala (where are you)

there's someone out there for me (there's someone out there for me)
i know she's waiting so patiently (so patient)
can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
these lifelong searches gonna drive me insane

how does he laugh how does he cry
what's the colour of his eyes
does he even realise i'm here

where is she, where is she, where is she
where is this beautiful girl
who is she, who is she
who's gonna complete my world
where is he, where is he,
where is this beautiful guy
who is he, who is he
who's gonna take me so high

lalalalalalala lalalalala lalalalalalala

where are you
i'm gonna look all over the world baby
cos i know you're out there
and i know i might sound crazy
but i think i love you
that's right.

happy new year! :)

it's been a while since i'm ever at home at 12 midnight.

and i'm dreading adult fares ):