Tuesday, June 12, 2007
i'm disturbed
what happened to our reliance on each other?
we used to depend on each other so much
and not be afraid of showing it
i could list names if i wanted to
but i don't even know if those people still read my blog.
some i know still do
some i know never will.
there's nothing wrong with being reliant on another
i've walked out of that unscathed
still being able to be independent
i'm not wishing for anyone to come back
for me to rely on again
but maybe we could just chat again
like the old days
maybe i'm not initiative enough.
was reading through my old emails
emails dating back to 2002
played old songs
thought old thoughts
there's nothing wrong with the present
but neither is just wishing for a little bit of the past
to come back here.
in sec2,
we cried about departure because we were going to different classes
but our classrooms were on the same level anyway.
in sec4,
we cried about departure because we were going to different jcs
but we still could meet up anyway
in j2,
we cried about departure because we were all going different ways
maybe it's a little hard to track back the true reason
but timings clashed so much
and i know my timings were so different from yours
you got too bothered to ask me anyway.
i'm not blaming anyone or anything that has happened
like i said,
i just wish for a little yesterday in our today.
and i was just wondering
how would things be if i chose a different path that day?
that day when things could still take a different turn.
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sometimes i can see the similarities between him and her
but how is that we treat her with utter respect
giving her enough face
but we treat him with utter contempt?
both have the same intentions,
same methods of execution,
same habits.
with only this much difference,
yet that much difference?
i'm not intentionally speaking in ambiguity
i just don't know how to spill things out
yet retain that level of sensitivity.
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why do you behave as if it's wrong to demand what i think i'm worth?
do you actually believe that one should settle for less than expected?
i'm not playing hard to get.
i really need whatever you can give me.
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and how come we both are in the same situation
yet my attitude towards it
is so different from your attitude towards it?
shouldn't you try to be lessening the burden
rather than adding on?
we used to depend on each other so much
and not be afraid of showing it
i could list names if i wanted to
but i don't even know if those people still read my blog.
some i know still do
some i know never will.
there's nothing wrong with being reliant on another
i've walked out of that unscathed
still being able to be independent
i'm not wishing for anyone to come back
for me to rely on again
but maybe we could just chat again
like the old days
maybe i'm not initiative enough.
was reading through my old emails
emails dating back to 2002
played old songs
thought old thoughts
there's nothing wrong with the present
but neither is just wishing for a little bit of the past
to come back here.
in sec2,
we cried about departure because we were going to different classes
but our classrooms were on the same level anyway.
in sec4,
we cried about departure because we were going to different jcs
but we still could meet up anyway
in j2,
we cried about departure because we were all going different ways
maybe it's a little hard to track back the true reason
but timings clashed so much
and i know my timings were so different from yours
you got too bothered to ask me anyway.
i'm not blaming anyone or anything that has happened
like i said,
i just wish for a little yesterday in our today.
and i was just wondering
how would things be if i chose a different path that day?
that day when things could still take a different turn.
-----------------------
sometimes i can see the similarities between him and her
but how is that we treat her with utter respect
giving her enough face
but we treat him with utter contempt?
both have the same intentions,
same methods of execution,
same habits.
with only this much difference,
yet that much difference?
i'm not intentionally speaking in ambiguity
i just don't know how to spill things out
yet retain that level of sensitivity.
----------------------------
why do you behave as if it's wrong to demand what i think i'm worth?
do you actually believe that one should settle for less than expected?
i'm not playing hard to get.
i really need whatever you can give me.
----------------------------
and how come we both are in the same situation
yet my attitude towards it
is so different from your attitude towards it?
shouldn't you try to be lessening the burden
rather than adding on?
