阿婆the GM - paper vulture ;

so fucking sick and tired.

there's always a "but" and i'm fucking sick of "buts".
it kills me because i know i shouldn't pay attention to them
but what can i do?

nothing that has happened was my fault,
but not everything that has, yours too.

so what am i supposed to do?

just stop asking about me.
just fucking stop it because i don't want to think you care
cos i don't know if you do or not
but i don't want to believe in "yes" anymore.

so, "no".

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super tired.
can't sleep or i'll fail.
i know it's almost impossible to get into QF.
but i'll keep trying.
because it's the only thing that gives me hope now.

even at work, i feel like a nobody.
and i'm so not used to it.

when people ask me about my work before renovations,
even though i'm telling the truth
it seems like i'm boasting.

because, i don't seem that special anymore.
maybe i'm even overpaid at $7.

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if you had intentions for me right from the beginning,
just tell me.
don't even bother to ask me this and that
when you don't intend to give a heck.

i don't know man.