阿婆the GM - paper vulture ;

i think..

i think i like being in my own world pretty much.
i like to be in control, i like to be focused.
i like it when there're no spontaneous incidents to disrupt my system.
i'm happy in here, and i'm contented.

i think there's something that i secretly want.
even though i know it'll be bad for me.
my life will be messy,
my system will be disrupted,
and all logic will be overcome by irrational thinking.
so right now, i think i don't want to want it.

i think you're right.
the balance is never there.
and maybe it bothers me so much because of who i am.
but i'm learning!
i've learnt to take things in my stride,
and accept incidents as they happen.
especially if they don't really involve me.

i think i need to keep my heart reined in tight,
and stop being so emotionally attached to 10,000 happenings.
hey, the more you wander,
the more my brain suffers;
the more my rest suffers;
the more i suffer.

brain power.
brain at work.
nothing but the brain.