Friday, October 12, 2007
what day is it
five reasons kept me going. five kept my passion alive. one left us. one transferred out. one broke my heart. one turned his back on me and the last one is serving her last two weeks' of notice. is there anything else worth staying for? all the people i fought for in the past are fighting me in return now. i guess karma really is crap. or maybe it's just them. but in these 2 months i've realised, it's more or less everyone.
typing in para format may be better because it's more mafan to read and people are more likely to get confused midsentence if i suddenly change topic and say i've got icecream on my hair two thousand bags of detergent charge handphone hohohoho i enjoy this.
i really wanna leave now. and i think i will. even if they gimme sth better. somewhere else. i dunno. it's just not where i wanna stay anymore. long talks about the old times make me think. does climbing the ladder really mean THAT much to all of you? i know you've gotta want to go up higher, but does it mean putting our friendship at stake? does it mean putting everything we've had for 8 months at stake? taking advantage of the situation don't seem too gentlemanly to me. you're in a fucked up company and too bad. you want to get your promotion when you think you're worth it, just go away. don't fucking snap and shout and interfere in our matters when on the other hand you complain about too many things to do. don't know what's going on in all of these weird weird minds. i guess adults really are a little mad. i don't wanna grow up and become like these psycho people!! and if i hear "shut up, part-timer" one more time, to me or anyone else, i swear i'll hit the roof. and i'll leave. because the place doesn't mean anything to me anymore. the parts that have meaning have been torn down and replaced with tacky chinese wallpaper anyway. i've no idea why i settled for the worst choice, when i had so many all lined up. i feel as if i've let down geoffrey because he was so sincere. not like some motherfucking fat fucker who only know how to pretend. i'll choose who i need to trust prudently from now on. in school, at work, anywhere. everyone.
btw, i am obsessed with upping my level on superpoke.
typing in para format may be better because it's more mafan to read and people are more likely to get confused midsentence if i suddenly change topic and say i've got icecream on my hair two thousand bags of detergent charge handphone hohohoho i enjoy this.
i really wanna leave now. and i think i will. even if they gimme sth better. somewhere else. i dunno. it's just not where i wanna stay anymore. long talks about the old times make me think. does climbing the ladder really mean THAT much to all of you? i know you've gotta want to go up higher, but does it mean putting our friendship at stake? does it mean putting everything we've had for 8 months at stake? taking advantage of the situation don't seem too gentlemanly to me. you're in a fucked up company and too bad. you want to get your promotion when you think you're worth it, just go away. don't fucking snap and shout and interfere in our matters when on the other hand you complain about too many things to do. don't know what's going on in all of these weird weird minds. i guess adults really are a little mad. i don't wanna grow up and become like these psycho people!! and if i hear "shut up, part-timer" one more time, to me or anyone else, i swear i'll hit the roof. and i'll leave. because the place doesn't mean anything to me anymore. the parts that have meaning have been torn down and replaced with tacky chinese wallpaper anyway. i've no idea why i settled for the worst choice, when i had so many all lined up. i feel as if i've let down geoffrey because he was so sincere. not like some motherfucking fat fucker who only know how to pretend. i'll choose who i need to trust prudently from now on. in school, at work, anywhere. everyone.
btw, i am obsessed with upping my level on superpoke.
